Tuesday, February 25, 2014. I found something that focuses on the positive that I need to hear right now. This is “big wigs speaking to big wigs” – about how to create change not by focusing on what is NOT happening toward accomplishing a goal but rather how to “honor the intention” to move in a positive direction. Their employment is in areas connected to working toward getting humanity to change actions that are contributing to climate change.
I live in earth’s climate. I also live in the climate I create within my own being on a moment-to-moment basis. I am taking a look at my own climate!!
“Go where the energy is moving. You don’t need to create it. It’s already there.”
This is an unlikely source for me to access in order to find new thinking about my old problems. I know what my problems are. Do I equally know what amazing positive steps I have taken and continue to take to live the best I can in my life WITH not only my difficulties but more importantly with the assets I have been using all of my life to get this far?
There are some amazingly wonderful statements made by the speaker in this talk. I especially liked the first part before the question and answer segment begins. But there are also many interesting and very helpful insights presented in response to the questions, as well.
I did listen to The Wheel of Awareness practice video today. Twice. I did nothing special to change the flow of my day as I listened. My little grandson was doing his thing. I was doing my thing. AND I was listening to this meditation.
I LOVED IT!
It’s not about changing anything, not about judging anything or controlling anything. This is my first foray into awareness of awareness itself. Very nice! Very gentle. Simply affirming of ME as I AM – not as I should be or could be. Nothing like that. But it fascinated me!
I especially found the section on paying attention to how thoughts come into my mind and what the do when they are there and how they leave and how other thoughts show up to be – well – FUN!!! Truth is – I have NO IDEA!!
So it seems I will benefit from listening to that meditation in that video again!!
I have reached enough of a crisis point in my life that I wish to find some way to expand my present experience of myself in my life PAST how I have been feeling. I am not finding anything that tells me to CHANGE how I am now, what I feel, what I think. This is a kind of honoring tradition it seems to me. What exactly IS this state I am in right now?
I am not going to worry a bit about “how I got this way.” That’s like asking a plant, “Gee, how exactly did you get to be a plant?”
I know a very great deal ABOUT how I struggle in life. I want to learn a bit about how NOT to struggle quite so much. This is sort of what the video is about I mention at the start of this post. Find what’s working and go with THAT energy.
Do I know what’s working for me? Not so much! I must admit. I have become a bit curious about that aspect of me in my life!
Part of what is motivating me right now is a statement that Dr. Siegel makes in the first part of this video which I also referenced in my post yesterday. The first part is his succinct expert presentation of attachment and of attachment disorders. I suppose it’s right around “18” on the slider bar where he states that (my paraphrase) the best someone with disorganized attachment insecure attachment disorder can probably hope for is to “move on up” to the less severe insecure disorders of either avoidant or ambivalent (preoccupied).
That is not good enough for me. I find that statement to be a negative one that belies the tremendous amount of work we who were most traumatized from birth continue to make toward healing. As much as I appreciate the work of Seigel – I certainly beg to differ with him on that prognosis for us! How DARE he limit his thoughts about our possibilities for improvement in such a way?
At the same time I recognize that I know most of what happened to change my physiological development in response to trauma is permanent. At the same time Dr. Siegel seems to be extremely hopeful and positive in MANY ways that the new neurobiological information is indicating that we can change the way our brain is working in significant ways.
I don’t think anyone knows enough at this juncture in our scientific discovery to make a statement as fact about what is or is not possible in the line of healing for severe early abuse, neglect and trauma survivors. On a personal level?
I am taking inventory. When I make my grocery shopping list for the week I do it based on what I HAVE in my kitchen because that’s the only way I will know what I need. I HAVE much positive in me and I forget to recognize that!
So – I am on THAT road right now! Most curious, too, about what I am discovering!
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