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Friday, January 27, 2017.

MAYBE

Watching faces of people as they talk talk talk

I am at a distance

Always from a distance

Puzzled, really

At such animations which tell me nothing

Mean nothing

Always I am pretending to understand

While I guess

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And because I am female

I have always known

That THEY matter

Most

So I have never stopped the struggle

The hopeless effortful struggle

Until now

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Because there is no sense there

Why have I always believed

That people DO make sense?

It occurs to me

Now

Maybe

They don’t.

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Maybe people don’t know what they think, feel, need

What they ask for

Maybe everyone participates in this not-knowing dance

Because they must

And?

Because if everyone participates in this confusion

Equally

It means we are all safe?

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But maybe they all know

What they are talking about.

I don’t.

Now?

I think by nature and design

I need to

Walk

Away.

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