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Friday, January 27, 2017.
MAYBE
Watching faces of people as they talk talk talk
I am at a distance
Always from a distance
Puzzled, really
At such animations which tell me nothing
Mean nothing
Always I am pretending to understand
While I guess
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And because I am female
I have always known
That THEY matter
Most
So I have never stopped the struggle
The hopeless effortful struggle
Until now
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Because there is no sense there
Why have I always believed
That people DO make sense?
It occurs to me
Now
Maybe
They don’t.
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Maybe people don’t know what they think, feel, need
What they ask for
Maybe everyone participates in this not-knowing dance
Because they must
And?
Because if everyone participates in this confusion
Equally
It means we are all safe?
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But maybe they all know
What they are talking about.
I don’t.
Now?
I think by nature and design
I need to
Walk
Away.
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