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adult attachment disorders / borderline mother / Borderline Personality Disorder / Child Abuse / Depression / Dissociation / Posttraumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) / Trauma and Its Consequences
+ADOBE MOMMA NEWS: FALL IS COMING IN THE GARDEN
Stop the Storm 
Made my day 🙂 I also love the pebbles (?) and paving stones.
Thank you for visiting the garden! I often think about how I have been on the run all my adult life – and how having the garden now and the life within it that will die without my care has settled me down – like an anchor.
When I ever think about leaving here — tied as I now see to my reactive insecure attachment disorder – like thinking I’ll run away to Canada if that nation passes a law against anyone including parents hitting-‘spanking’ their children — my choice settles back down to my desire not to abandon my plants!
As many severe abuse and trauma survivors do, I sometimes struggle with how difficult it is to LIKE being alive in a body. It is hard to CHOOSE LIFE – on a deep level. The garden presents me with an externalized way to think/feel about this. Would I CHOOSE to walk away (unless I had to) from the garden and let it die?
There is still one last section of the yard I need to ‘fix’ – it will be interesting to see when/how I get around to that. There is a lot of money in the yard – every extra cent I could find over two years. I don’t want to spend the $300 or so to finish this last corner. Will see!!
Just beautiful Momma!!! What a lovely space you have made for yourself!