+U.N. REPORT CARD ON CHILD WELL-BEING AMONG GLOBE’S 24 RICHEST COUNTRIES: AMERICA FLUNKS!

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This IS A MUST READ!  The United Nation’s 2010 report card on child well-being shows the comparative standing of the United States among the world’s 24 richest nations — and we FLUNK!

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2010

United Nations — The Innocenti Report Card 9

THE CHILDREN LEFT BEHIND:  A league table of inequality in child well-being in the world’s rich countries

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+HAVING THE COURAGE TO LOOK FOR THE TRUTH

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+HAVING THE COURAGE TO LOOK FOR THE TRUTH

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For all the interventions and attempts at prevention of human difficulties, for all the therapy, counseling, self-help books, expensive research that results in a plethora of psychological theories, treatment programs, ‘mental illness’ diagnostic categories and their corresponding prescribed medications that exist in our culture for humans of all ages, who exactly is telling us the truth?  How did we come to convince ourselves that humans can break the laws of nature and not suffer devastating consequences?

If a person leaps from a ten story ledge and falls to their death on the ground, they did not break the laws of nature, they broke their neck.

As I bring together what I am thinking at this moment with what I write in this post I am finding I face a shocking fact that I don’t think ANYONE really wants to admit.  A major contributing factor to all that is targeted by the areas of concern I listed in my first paragraph is our culture’s denigration of WOMEN.

Who would want to admit that misogyny is entrenched in America?

Is it?

A fundamental fact in natural law is that human infants and children need certain elements available to them in their earliest caregiving environment to grow their body-brain.   Nature has also devised a most clever way to meet the needs of infants:  Infants are given to mothers.  Gee, rocket science here — mothers are women.

If we choose to NOT have women-mothers be the primary caregivers to their infants then we better make sure we know exactly what appropriate and adequate MOTHERING is so that we can reproduce the meeting of infant-toddler-child needs in some other way.

True, many if not most human infants DO survive nearly completely inadequate early caregiving environments.  But NEVER do these deprived infants grow a body-brain that DOESN’T include in it a full range of trauma altered changes to their development.

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Maybe there is something built into the psyche of our nation that makes us believe WE CAN HAVE IT ALL just because we want it.

On the most important level that exists for our species, we seem to believe that we can create children and raise them in any kind of environment we want to — and what?  Expect no consequence?  Are we a nation of stubborn, willful, ignorant spoiled brats that we can actually believe we can do anything we want to and suffer nothing negative in consequence?

I find it appalling past pathetic to finally realize that the bottom line for nearly ALL of the difficulties humans face today — related to what I listed in my first paragraph — is that inadequate MOTHERING changed our physiological development in ways that I present again and again and again on this blog (included most recently in the two post-links below).

It is ludicrous to me that when we seek ‘help’ nobody tells us this fact!  How can we assume that we can break the direct link between how what happened to us PRIMARILY conception to age three fundamentally created the physical body IN EVERY WAY that we live in/with for the rest of our lives?

Are we going to wait as a nation until we cross the point of no return before we recognize that the care we give our mother’s and their offspring is the most important expression of our commitment to our continued survival?

We have already been told that our current generation of youth ages 17-24 are mostly unfit for military duty to defend our nation.  Aren’t we concerned that epidemic obesity may well soon mean that parents – for the first time in the history of our species – are likely to outlive their children?  Are we too busy denying the impact of inadequate care to infants and children to notice that the more we disturb the mother-infant safe and secure bonded relationship at the beginning of life the higher the devastating price we pay as individuals and as a society forever more?

Families create civilizations.  That means mothers, fathers and all relations that care for the newest members of that civilization.  If our nation can experience such a violent (vile?) reaction to the topic of Health Care Reform, what on this green earth would really happen to us if we tried to institute reform for completely adequate care for our infants, toddlers, children and adolescents?  A civil war?

Heaven forbid!  We would also have to look at how we care for the people who care for our young ones, most especially the mothers who care for the youngest ones!

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As long as we continue to deny — as a nation, society, culture, civilization — how our earliest experiences impacted our own TOTAL physiological development on ALL LEVELS we can continue to pretend that somehow we adults simply HATCH into the grown people we are — what?  All by ourselves?  If we experience inadequate early caregiving and then continue to have problems — why?  Because somehow we are ‘genetically inferior’, damaged flawed goods, faulty decision makers, inadequate human beings, or simply are getting what we deserve?

We are approaching being a nation of nonsense.

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+WHAT REALLY HAPPENED TO US: VIOLENT TRAUMA, MALTREATMENT, ATTACHMENT – BIRTH TO AGE THREE (and beyond)

+AN OUTLINE – THE SCOTTISH TAKE ON INFANT ABUSE, NEGLECT, TRAUMA AND ITS CONSEQUENCES

It takes courage to think against the mainstream, but when the mainstream’s thinking goes so far off the target of just plain common sense, sane people really have no other sane choice.

As I realize that the only place I can actually turn to discover the truth about what matters most in human development across the lifespan lies hidden and buried in the field of Infant Mental Health, I want to SHAKE this nation of ours.  I can no longer call it ‘great’ except when I add ‘going greatly off track’.  I, for one, do not wish to follow along in that dangerous, dangerous rut.

Maybe all of us -- not only violent trauma, neglect and maltreatment survivors -- need to belong to THIS club

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2010

United Nations — The Innocenti Report Card 9

THE CHILDREN LEFT BEHIND:  A league table of inequality in child well-being in the world’s rich countries

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+21 RICH NATIONS COMPARED ON CHILD WELL-BEING – U.S. AND U.K. AT THE BOTTOM

+TO BE OR NOT TO BE A TRAUMA-CHANGED HUMAN — THE QUALITY OF MOTHERING HOLDS THE ABSOLUTE KEY

+AMERICANS MUST NOT BELIEVE THAT CHILDREN ARE HUMAN BEINGS — THUS, NO HUMAN RIGHTS

+ALIGNING OUR NATION WITH UNITED NATIONS CHILD RIGHTS IS AGAINST OUR OWN LAWS

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+WHAT REALLY HAPPENED TO US: VIOLENT TRAUMA, MALTREATMENT, ATTACHMENT – BIRTH TO AGE THREE (and beyond)

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All survivors of infant-toddler-child violent trauma and maltreatment share a common ground.  Although the information I am presenting here might be difficult for some to read, what is being said here is extremely important.  When I say that it isn’t the exact memories of what specifically happened to any one of us that matters most, it is to the kind of information that follows that I am referring to that DOES matter most.

We survivors have always struggled.

Please spend a little time at least skimming through the rest of this post – if you are a survivor of a chaotic, unstable, violent early life I believe you will feel reverberations in your BODY to this topic.  I don’t believe we can truly follow our pathway through healing if we don’t truly comprehend the impact of the violent trauma and maltreatment we experienced – and what it did to us on all the levels of our development.

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What follows comes from this book:

Handbook of infant mental health By Dr. Charles H. Zeanah, Jr.

Publisher: The Guilford Press; Third Edition (July 15, 2009)

From Chapter 12 – The Effects of Violent Experience

(I present this copyrighted material here for educational purposes only – please refer to the actual book article for exact references to research noted)

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Neurobiology

“We noted earlier in this chapter that violent trauma early in life – particularly when involving repeated and severe exposure – impacts the central nervous system, brain development, and the overall health of the individual (McEwen, 2003).  We now review in greater depth the underlying neurobiology of the sequelae of violence exposure in a developmental and relational context.

“Preclinical studies have shown that areas of the brain that are particularly prone to the adverse effects of maltreatment and violent trauma during the first 3-5 years of life include (1) those that have a prolonged postnatal developmental period, (2) those with a high density of glucocorticoid receptors, and (3) those that have the potential for postnatal neurogenesis (Teicher et al., 2003).  These areas include, most prominently, the hippocampus, amygdala, corpus callosum, cerebellar vermis, and the cerebral cortex.

“When a rat infant undergoes severe stress, such as repeated foot shocks, the hippocampus fails to form the expected density of synaptic connections.  Normative pruning of these connections nonetheless occurs later in the prepubertal period, so adult animals who were repeatedly stressed in infancy end up with far fewer synaptic connections in this region (Andersen & Teicher, 2004).  These results support Carrion et al.’s (2007) findings that differences in hippocampal volume in patients with PTSD are more likely due to the neurotoxicity of stress hormones than to a constitutional size difference.  Clinical implications of hippocampal and amygdalar damage due to stress hormones may include increased propensity for confusion of past and present, flashbacks, and dissociative symptoms (Sakamoto et al., 2005).

“The corpus callosum is a heavily myelinated region of the brain that is associated with hemispheric integration.  High levels of stress hormones during infancy and early childhood have been associated with suppressed glial cell division, which is critical for myelination (Berrebi et al., 1988).  DeBellis et al. (2002) observed that reduced corpus callosum size was the most significant structural finding noted in children with a history of maltreatment and PTSD.  Disturbances in the myelination of the corpus callosum and cortex due to excessive exposure to glucocorticoids during the first 3 years of life may explain some of the difficulties that maltreated preschool-age children have in integrating cognitive and emotional information and in taking others’ perspective, in comparison to nonmaltreated age-matched controls (Pears & Fisher, 2005).

“Among the most exciting research that illustrates the interaction of development and traumatic experience is that regarding the differential effects of specific types of maltreatment and violent trauma on the brain at critical periods of development through early adulthood in both animal and human models (Hall, 1998; Teicher, Tomoda, & Andersen, 2006).  For example, repeated episodes of sexual and physical abuse were associated in the same group of subjects with reduced hippocampal volume if the abuse was reported to occur in early childhood, but with reduced prefrontal cortex volume if the abuse occurred during adolescence (Teicher, 2005).  Similar exposure during different, temporally discrete windows of development may have very different clinical implications.

Effects on Memory

The psychological and neurobiological implications of exposure to traumatic events also involve the infant and young child’s developmentally determined capacity to encode, remember, and recall those events in order to subsequently make meaning of their experience.  Recent evidence suggests that even prior to 1 year of age, infants’ capacity to recall events is well underway.  By the end of the second year of life, long-term memory is reliably and clearly present, especially when there have been reinforcing memories (i.e., repeated exposures or explicit reminders), which are unfortunately all too common in cases of maltreatment and family violence (Bauer, 2006; Hartshorn & Rovee-Collier, 2003).  Based on her review of the literature, Fivush (1998) has noted that traumatic events perceived before the age of 18 months are frequently not verbally accessible, whereas events experienced between 18 and 36 months can often be coherently recounted and retained as long-term memories.

“Early chronic and/or severe exposure to violence and/or maltreatment has also been noted to lead to greater pervasive insult to memory functions and to promote dissociative processes that can interfere with memory retrieval (Howe, Cicchetti, & Toth, 2006; Nelson & Carver, 1998).  One mechanism for this biological insult to memory function is thought to be primarily the effect of excessive glucocorticoids, which damage the developing structures involved in memory contextualization and storage, such as the hippocampus (Sapolsky, 2000; Sapolsky, Uno, Rebert, & Finch, 1990).  It is clear that over the course of formative development, exposure to violent trauma and maltreatment can affect the degree and nature of changes in the neurobiology of the brain.

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The Relational Context

“The violent traumatization of an infant or very young child, whether due to maltreatment or exposure to familial, community, war, or terrorist violence, is most significantly a breach in safety.  Unlike older children or adults, very young children experience their world contextually, from within the embrace of the primary attachment relationship (Scheeringa & Zeanah, 2001).  Their sense and expectation of safety are therefore inherently bound to the caregiver.  To appreciate the effects of violence on young children requires an understanding of the goals and mechanisms involved in the attachment relationship as well as the ways in which trauma impacts attachment.”

Attachment, Safety, and Violence

“In the anchoring concept of attachment theory, the ethological wisdom of a caregiver-infant behavioral system is seen as ensuring species’ survival (Bowlby, 1969).  The infant’s drive to maintain safety is paramount and is expressed in attachment behaviors that may phenotypically change over time but that serve the same purposeful goal of achieving “felt security” (Bretherton, 1990).  Perturbations in the infant’s ability to achieve felt security necessarily result in adaptations that may be more or less pernicious, depending on the quality and degree of frustration.  In response to the primary attachment figure’s track record of providing “felt” security, the infant constructs an “internal working model” of self and other.  This internal representation consolidates over the first 3 years of life and guides the infant’s expectations and behaviors in times of stress.

“The experience of violence, with its attendant physiological “felt anxiety” might therefore be conceptualized as the exact affective opposite of felt security.  The young child does not yet have the cognitive ability to mediate feelings of fear that result when exposed to violence, either as a victim or witness.  For young children, the caregiver’s role is to function as external regulator of negative or overwhelming internal affect and sensation.  Several violence scenarios may be imagined in which the caregiver is unavailable to soothe infant anxiety:  when the caregiver is being victimized, when the caregiver is a witness to violence and becomes too hyperaroused or too dissociated/avoidant to provide safety, or when the caregiver is the source of the violence – as in the case of parental child abuse (Carlson, 2000).  A toddler who has internalized a working model in which he or she is unprotected and repeatedly left subject to overwhelming fear – one of the definitional criterion for trauma – may develop what has been termed distortions in secure-base behavior (Lieberman & Pawl, 1990).  Such distortions are, in fact, attempts by the child to manage unmanageable anxiety without the actual or “real time” mentally represented assistance of the caregiver.

“If early childhood is characterized by a relational context in which the child’s ability to manage stress is determined by caregiver response, then the mental health status of the caregiver becomes a vital concern.  Fraiberg, Adelson, and Shapiro (1975) called attention to the profound effects of maternal mental health on the developing child.  The “ghosts in the nursery” that Fraiberg et al. described were malevolent internalized attachment figures who had subjected the caregiver to various forms of maltreatment during his or her own childhood.  Fraiberg et. al. observed that caregiver traumatization in the past resulted in (1) his or her present-day inability to respond appropriately to infant anxiety, or (2) his or her engagement in behavior that actually induced anxiety.  From an attachment perspective, the infant’s working model of self and other is thereby shaped by the caregiver’s disturbed attachment representations.

“Exploring representational models, Fonagy et. al. (Fonagy, Moran, Steele, Steele, & Higgitt, 1991; Fonagy, Steele, Moran, Steele, & Higgitt, 1993) identified the capacity for “reflective functioning” as an awareness of a meaningful relationship between underlying mental states (feelings, thoughts, motivations, intentions) and behavior in and between both self and others.  Fonagy’s group found that caregiver reflective functioning was significantly predictive of infant attachment classification.  The caregiver’s capacity to “read” infant mental states accurately, and with inference of meaning, allows for sensitively attuned responses that create a subjective experience of security/safety and support the infant’s developing capacity for self-regulation (Bretherton & Munholland, 1999).  However, when engaging in reflective functioning leads to the experiencing of highly negative affect, certain aspects of mental functioning may be defensively inhibited (Fonagy, Steele, Steele, Higgitt, & Target, 1994) or excluded (Bretherton, 1990).  A caregiver in a state of defensive inhibition will be incapable of accurately responding to and reflecting the child’s mental state, leaving the child to manage states of arousal and anxiety on his or her own.  Consistent with this formulation is the finding that young children assessed as having a disorganized attachment have caregivers who are often unresolved with respect to past traumatic experience (Lyons-Ruth & Jacobvitz, 1999).  In short, caregiver history of attachment relationships and of trauma exposure determines not only the dyad’s quality of attachment, via reflective functioning, but additionally the manner in which trauma exposure will be processed by both child and caregiver.

“Thus, traumatic violence can interfere with the initial development of a secure and organized attachment or derail a previously secure attachment if the caregiver is sufficiently adversely affected.  Disturbances in attachment, in turn, confer increased [sic] for (1) recovery from trauma exposure by the child and/or caregiver (Fisher, Gunnar, Dozier, Bruce, & Pears, 2006), (2) enactment of maltreatment by the traumatized caregiver (Cicchetti, Rogosch, & Toth, 2006), (3) child exposure to trauma via inadequate caregiver monitoring (Schechter, 2006; Schechter, Brunelli, Cunningham, Brown, & Baca, 2002; Schechter et al., 2005), and (4) subsequent repetition and transmission of risk by the traumatized child and/or caregiver (Weinfield, Whaley, & Egeland, 2004).  Such evidence supports the contention that we must view infant mental health disturbances through the dual conceptual lenses of attachment theory and trauma theory (Lieberman, 2004).”  (pages 205 – 206)

Relational Neurobiology

Like all psychological functions, the child’s expectations in relation to attachment figures have neurobiological correlates.  In addition to the effects of cortisol noted earlier, physical abuse, compounding its clear effects on emotion regulation and separation anxiety within the context of attachment, has been found to be associated with attentional dysregulation and selective biases to angry and negative affect (Pollak & Torrey-Schell, 2003).

“Moreover, from early infancy, children are dependent on their attachment figures to reflect back to them how they are feeling and to make sense of their experience.  Expectation of the contingent responsiveness during early infancy has been described empirically in the work of Gergely and Watson (1996), who also first described the “marking” of the infant’s affect by the primary caregiver – the processing and modulation of that affect, which feeds back a sense of empathy as well as serving a modulatory function for the baby, beginning in the period of the second to fifth months of life.  Subsequently, Gergely (2001) noted that lack of marking and overidentification with the child’s perspective may interfere with affect regulation, particularly around crises and trauma.

“We now know that specific neural circuits in the developing brain, among which the mirror neuron system figures prominently, are crucial to the development of social cognition, self-awareness, affect regulation, and learning (Jacoboni & Dapretto, 2006).  The functional implications of these cortical pre-motor planning and parietal structures in the context of early development are only just beginning to be understood.  The impact of violence exposure on the development of these circuits with respect to expression of aggression remains to be studied.

Myron Hofer (1984) has described multiple “hidden regulators” embedded within the attachment system across mammalian species.  The need for mutual regulation of emotion and arousal in humans lasts approximately as long as it takes for integrative structures in the brain to myelinate and prefrontal cortical areas to develop, all of which serve to assist the child in self-regulation in the face of stress and fear.  In other words, the primary caregiver is, during the first 5 years of life, crucial to the infant’s developing self-regulation.  The hidden regulators embedded within the attachment system include those of sleep, feeding, digestion, and excretion as well as higher functions of emotion, arousal, and attention.  The literature contains many examples of how the sequelae of a caregiver’s experience of violent trauma and maltreatment, PTSD, affective disorders, severe personality disorders, and substance abuse can impair this fundamental regulatory function during formative stages of development, both at the representational and behavioral levels of attachment.  (Lyons-Ruth & Block, 1996; Schechter et al., 2005; Theran, Levendosky, Bogat, & Huth-Bocks, 2005), and contribute to intergenerational transmission of violent trauma and maltreatment.

“Neurobiologically based studies of primates, specifically, macaque monkeys, have helped to elucidate the role of attachment in interrupting versus promoting intergenerational transmission of maltreatment (Barr et al., 2004; Maestripieri, 2005; Shannon et al., 2005).  In Shannon et al.’s study (2005), maternal absence (i.e., neglect) was associated with decreased serotonin replenishment, a finding associated with mood and impulse disorders, as well as with increased alcohol consumption (in Barr e al.’s study, 2004).

“Recent research has also supported transgenerational transmission of biological response to trauma.  Whether this finding proves ultimately to be a risk or resilience factor remains a question.  An affected mother’s exposure to violent trauma during pregnancy (i.e., the 9/11 terrorist attacks on the World Trade Center in New York City) and her glucocorticoid stress response were linked to the glucocorticoid levels, upregulation of the receptor setpoint, and behavior of her infant by 9 months of life (Yehuda et al., 2005)….  Could this transmission of response to shared stress during pregnancy be one example at the very beginning of the organism’s life of adaptation in the service of evolution?  Is the mother’s biology preparing the offspring for expectation of threat?  If so, can one say that the development of PTSD (and/or other posttraumatic psychopathology) is a form of risk if no further threat actually exists, or resilience in the form of potentially beneficial hypervigilance to actual subsequent threat?  [bold type is mine]

“As the hypothalamic-midbrain-limbic-paralimbic-cortical circuits in the caregiver respond jointly to infant stimuli, as has been found in recent neuroimaging studies among normative mother-infant dyads (Swain, Lorberbaum, Kose, & Strathearn, 2007), one can imagine a cycle of dysregulation in which unquelled infant distress becomes a stressor particularly for a traumatized parent.  Indeed, while watching video clips of their children during separation and other stressful moments, group differences between violence-exposed mothers of toddlers and nonexposed mothers have been noted with respect to measures of integrative behavior, autonomic nervous system activity, and brain activation (Schechter, 2006).

“We know that an important determinant of the effects of traumatic exposure (e.g., how long they endure) is the primary caregiver’s ability to help restore a sense of safety via regulation of infant emotion, sleep, arousal, and attention (Laor, Wolmer, & Cohen, 2001; Scheeringa & Zeanah, 2001).  These emerging findings may illuminate the ways in which the experience of violent trauma and its sequelae interfere with this primary caregiving function.  On a positive note, we have also begun to understand how new relationships, most dramatically that of foster care, can curb if not reverse at least some of the effects of early violent trauma exposure (Fisher et al., 2006; Zeanah et al., 2001).

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+AN OUTLINE – THE SCOTTISH TAKE ON INFANT ABUSE, NEGLECT, TRAUMA AND ITS CONSEQUENCES

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Infant psychotherapy.  It wasn’t that many years ago that I didn’t even know this professional field even existed!  Today I understand that everything about infant psychotherapy for traumatized, neglected and abused infants (and children) applies to me – even though I am now 59 years old!

When I have days when I don’t feel ‘good’ or ‘well’ or ‘right’ it helps me to know why.  On days that seem much more difficult than others I often go searching online for information that I know will mirror back to me WHAT happened to me that created the states I find myself in today.

When I read through the information that follows in this post I KNOW it is describing me.  It could seem strange that I have to go all the way back to my first three years of life in order to locate the information I need to explain to myself that I am FINE – even when I don’t feel one bit FINE!

As I read what follows I can begin to put into perspective how the terrible abuse and trauma I was born into took away from me any possible chance of developing a normal body-brain in any normal way.  The information that follows puts a mirror in front of me that lets me see that NOBODY, absolutely NOBODY could have done any better job at surviving what happened to me than I did.

That same NOBODY could not have helped but end up in a body-brain that was forced to change its course of development in adaptation to severe abuse and trauma just as mine did.  In this information (below) there are big empty spaces along with few actual words in a PowerPoint presentation which gives me and my early abuse and trauma survivor peers plenty of room to add in between the lines any specifics about our actual beginnings that add up, in combination with the scientific facts presented here, to be who and HOW we are today – stunningly successful survivors of what could have easily killed us.

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I know that this is a strange format for a post – but I think this is important information.  It’s just that I found it online in the form of a PowerPoint presentation that Google automatically put into an HTML format for me.  This appears to have come from a presentation done by Dr. Louise Newman, director of the New South Wales Institute of Psychiatry in Scotland.  (I have Americanized the spelling and added a few things in italics between [brackets])

TITLE OF PRESENTATION:

THE FIRST THREE YEARS – promoting infant mental health and development

INFANCY AS A DEVELOPMENTAL PERIOD

  • Infancy is a foundational developmental period
  • Infancy is a critical period where certain experiences are required for healthy development across the life span
  • Infant development occurs in the context of caretaking relationships
  • “There is no such thing as an infant” [I have no idea what this means!]

DEVELOPMENT IN INFANCY

  • Neuropsychological processes
  • Affect regulation
  • Representations of self, other
  • Attachment Style
  • Adaptation  to Stress
  • Capacity for intimacy and empathy

INFANT CAPACITIES

  • Programmed for social interaction [from before our birth]
  • Ability to communicate emotional experience
  • Move towards development and self-regulation

EARLY BRAIN DEVELOPMENT

  • Promoted by secure attachment
  • Sharing of positive affective states
  • Caregiver maintains optimal level of arousal [essential for building the entire connection between Central Nervous System and its center set point, brain, stress-calm response system, Autonomic Nervous System, vagus nerve system immune system]
  • Mutually attuned synchronized interactions promote affective development

Rapid growth occurs in the first three years of life – connections and networks

  • Experience shapes brain development – connections develop as the result of stimulation [neglect has disasterous consequences due to too little stimulation, abuse and trauma = too much stimulation – even TOO happy can be damaging because it also can be too stimulating for a very young developing nervous system-brain]

EXPERIENCE & DEVELOPMENT

  • Experience activates specific neuronal connections
  • Sharing positive emotional states with a caretaker promotes brain growth and the development of regulatory capacities
  • Secure attachment promotes neurobiological functioning, emotional regulation and adaptation to stress

NEUROBIOLOGY OF ATTACHMENT

  • Secure attachment promotes brain growth [insecure attachment and its stress creates cortisol reactions that destroy brain cells.  Too little early joy kills brain cells in the left brain happy center]
  • Attachment relationship regulates emotional experience and level of arousal
  • Attachment figure acts as an external neurobiological regulator

NEUROBIOLOGY OF ATTACHMENT

  • SECURE ATTACHMENT – optimal level of arousal
  • AVOIDANT ATTACHMENT – downplaying of emotional display
  • AMBIVALENT ATTACHMENT – heightened emotional display
  • DISORGANIZED ATTACHMENT – high arousal and stress

NEUROCHEMISTRY OF ATTACHMENT

  • Resting mutual gaze – endogenous opioids
  • Regulation of neurotransmitters – dopamine and serotonin
  • Regulation of stress hormones – noradrenalin, cortisol

ATTACHMENT DISORGANIZATION

  • Associated with trauma and abuse
  • Lack of effective strategy for dealing with caretaker
  • High levels of stress and related hormones
  • Defensive exclusion of understanding of caretaker
  • Excessive use of dissociation and opioid related states

ATTACHMENT DISORGANIZATION

  • Poor development of internal state language
  • Poor reflective function
  • Deficits in empathy
  • Contradictory representations of self and other
  • Dysregulation of behavior, affect and impulses

TRAUMA IN INFANCY & CHILDHOOD

  • Psychic trauma occurs when a sudden unexpected intense external experience overwhelms the individuals’ coping and defensive operations, creating the feeling of utter helplessness [Bold type is mine.  Well, this certainly describes the insane violent mess I was born into, formed within, and endured for the first 18 years of my life — with NO single safe and secure attachment to ANYONE.  There was no possible way for my body-brain to form the circuits, connections, networks and pathways necessary to INTERNALIZE secure attachments.  No wonder I miss my loved ones so much!]
  • Lenore Terr (1987)

TRAUMA AND DEVELOPMENT

  • Effects of trauma during critical periods of development
  • Long-term implications of attachment disruption and maltreatment
  • New infant brain research and implications for decision-making, intervention and child protection

CHRONIC TRAUMA AND DEVELOPMENT

  • Child adapts to enduring stress according to developmental stage and capacities
  • Chronic stress will effect all domains of development and neurobiological functioning [bolding is mine]
  • Vulnerability is greatest at stages of rapid neurobiological organization

SPECTRUM OF TRAUMA

  • Single overwhelming events
  • Chronic enduring stressors
  • Indirect exposure
  • Transgenerational trauma

MODERATE STRESSORS

  • Emotionally unavailable caregiver – depression, anxiety, bereavement
  • Parental hostility and anger
  • Family conflict and domestic violence
  • Unpredictability and inconsistency
  • Neglect and stimulus deprivation

EXTEME & CATASTROPHIC STRESSORS –
NCCIP Classification

  • Loss of attachment figure
  • Continued physical/sexual abuse
  • Family overwhelmed – war, displacement, terror
  • Abandonment and gross neglect

TRANSGENERATIONAL TRAUMA

  • Repetition of disturbed interactions and patterns of relationships
  • Repetition of abuse and maltreatment
  • Issues for abused parents – anxiety, compensation and reparation, envy
  • Re-enactment of unresolved attachment trauma

NEURODEVELOPMENT & TRAUMA

  • Dysregulation of HPA axis functioning – stress system
  • Altered cortisol pattern – stress hormone
  • Reduced volume of hippocampus – memory
  • Reduced volume of corpus callosum – information processing
  • Potential effects on mood and impulse control, emotional regulation

BRAIN FUNCTION & EXPERIENCE

  • STRESS – hyperactive stress response
  • CHAOS – poor sensory integration, attentional and processing problems
  • NEGLECT – poor emotional regulation, deficits in processing of socioemotional information and attachment
  • ABUSE – poor regulation of anger, aggression, impulses, anxiety; deficits in emotional understanding,

IMPACT OF TRAUMA

  • Severity of the stressor
  • Developmental level of the child
  • Availability and capacity of adult support

CHILDRENS’ RESPONSES TO TRAUMA

  • Children process and recall acute traumatic events
  • Persistent high arousal and anxiety
  • Immediate reactions include regression, clinging, muteness
  • Traumatic re-enactment in play and behavior

TRAUMA SPECIFIC DIAGNOSES

  • Acute stress responses in infants – dissociation
  • Post-traumatic stress disorder – traumatic play, fears
  • Disruptive Behavior Disorders
  • Attachment Disorders

TRAUMA AND THE BRAIN

  • Stress hormones and cortisol are neurotoxic
  • Sensitized pathways develop in right orbito-frontal brain regions – PTSD
  • Long lasting impairment in brain regions involved in regulation of the intensity of feelings
  • Persistent dissociation

RESPONSES TO THREAT

  • HYPERAROUSAL – fight or flight response; adrenaline/noradrenaline; sympathetic
  • DISSOCIATIVE – freeze or play dead response; opioids and dopamine; parasympathetic

CHRONIC TRAUMA

  • Persistent orientation to threat and activation of stress response
  • Altered opioid, dopaminergic and serotonergic systems
  • Hyperarousal and overactivity
  • Affective dysregulation and impulsivity

TYPE 2 TRAUMA –

  • Adaptation – avoidance, repression, dissociation
  • Repetition – re-enactment, play, identification
  • Anxiety – arousal, aggression, self-harm
  • Self-Concept – depression, guilt, shame

CORE DEFICITS

  • Problems with interpersonal relationships
  • Problems with affect regulation
  • Ongoing vulnerability to stress
  • Self and other representations – negative self-concept, mistrust of others
  • Deficits in reflective function and empathy

TRAUMA SYNDROME

  • Over reaction to trauma associated stimuli
  • Poor anxiety tolerance
  • Poor modulation of aggression
  • Disorganized attachment behaviors, anger towards attachment figures
  • Poor affect control
  • Self-destructive behaviors

TRAUMA & PERSONALITY DEVELOPMENT

  • Dysregulation of affect and impulses
  • Disorganized attachment
  • Multiple models of self and others
  • Poor reflective function
  • Negative self-introject

HIGH RISK PARENTING

  • Parenting relationships which impact adversely on child development and particularly on  security of attachment
  • Spectrum of parenting behaviors, emotional responses, attitudes and conflicts (conscious and unconscious) which are traumatizing for the child and result in disorganization of attachment and impact on emotional and behavioral regulation
  • Influenced by parental attachment history, reflective capacity and mental state

PREVENTION IN HIGH RISK DYADS

  • Identify maternal history of abuse and trauma
  • Identify capacity to think of the infants’ needs and inner world
  • Look for patterns of identification of infant with a traumatic figure
  • Interventions focus on improving responsivity and emotional attunement
  • Aim at improving understanding of infant needs and changing perceptions of the infant
  • Infant -led interventions

IMPLICATIONS OF NEW BRAIN RESEARCH

  • Importance of protecting children during critical neurodevelopmental periods
  • Foundational role of early attachment experiences and psychosocial environment
  • Protective role of alternate attachment experiences

PARENT-INFANT CLINICAL INTERVENTION

THEORETICAL MODELS — Part 2

RATIONALE FOR INTERVENTION

  • Increasing evidence for the foundational importance of infancy
  • Need for prevention and early intervention
  • Relationship problems are transgeneratioinal
  • New knowledge of early brain development

PARENT-INFANT INTERVENTIONS

  • Focus on the infant and the caretaking environment
  • Promote infant development and attachment security
  • Preventive focus
  • Use observable interactions and their meaning
  • Model of affective communication

RANGE OF INTERVENTIONS

  • Parent-focused psychoeducational Approaches
  • Behavioral Management Approaches
  • Relationship based Approaches
  • Psychodynamic and Psychoanalytic
  • Eclectic

INTERVENTIONS

  • Dyadic or Triadic
  • Infant experience as focus
  • Understanding caregiver’s representation of the infant
  • Eclectic technique – behavioral, dynamic, systemic

DEVELOPMENT OF PROBLEMS IN INFANCY

  • Infant is born with capacities to establish a relationship with a human being
  • Born into a network of intergenerational internalized relationships
  • Infant has meaning in the mind of the parent

PROBLEMS IN INFANCY

  • Problems develop when the mother/caregiver cannot see the infant as separate and communicating
  • Unresolved parental attachment trauma permeates the relationship with the infant

WINNICOTT: MATERNAL HOLDING

  • Meeting the infants spontaneous gesture
  • Allowing the infant to take initiative and communicate internal states
  • Non-Intrusive attention
  • Allows infant to experience own impulses and promotes authentic self

BION: CONTAINING MOTHER

  • Capacity to tolerate infants’ negative affect
  • Capacity to interpret infant communication
  • Affective regulation and language
  • Capacity to tolerate dependency
  • Capacity to tolerate individuation of infant

TASKS OF BIRTH

  • Adaptation to the particular infant
  • Coping with loss of fusion
  • Coping with fears of harming the infant
  • Tolerance of dependency
  • Tolerance of physicality

BABY AT BIRTH

  • Imaginary Baby
  • Relationship with developing fetus
  • Actual Infant

MEANING OF THE INFANT

  • Baby as Ghost
  • Baby as Self
  • Baby as Repetition of Past Relationship

MATERNAL SELF-CONCEPT

  • Capacity to Nurture
  • Ability to manage frustration and aggressive feelings
  • Tolerance of Dependency
  • Reworking female identity and relationship with own mother

PROBLEMS OF EARLY ATTACHMENT

  • Maternal Anxiety
  • Maternal Ambivalence
  • Transition to Parenthood
  • Partner/Systemic Issues

MATERNAL RISK FACTORS

  • Early experiences of neglect and abandonment
  • Early abuse and maltreatment
  • Unresolved anger and hostility
  • Limited access to memories and self-reflection
  • Envy and unconscious need to devalue infant experience

EARLY ATTACHMENT PROBLEMS – INFANT FACTORS

  • Intrinsic problems of interaction and regulation
  • Dysregulated infant – prematurity, neurological, substance exposure, perinatal insult
  • Neurodevelopmental Effects of trauma and stress in pregnancy

EARLY MATERNAL DISTURBACES

  • Inability to tolerate infant negative states
  • Perception of baby as attacking, hostile , rejecting or overwhelming
  • Misperception of the infant
  • Attribution of negative motives to the infant
  • Infant experiences stress, anxiety, depression, anger

PSYCHODYNAMIC PSYCHOTHERAPY

  • Double Agenda – listen to mother and observe infant
  • Joint Focal Attention – therapist and mother focus on the infant and understand his/her experience and communication
  • Parallel Process – relationship between therapist and mother, mother and infant

MISPERCEIVED INFANT

  • Lack of sense of authenticity
  • Fears of abandonment and annihilation
  • Confusion about emotional states and expression
  • Neurodevelopmental effects of chronic stress

INFANT-PARENT PSYCHOTHERAPY

  • Range of approaches using observable infant-parent emotional interaction
  • Model of understanding the infants difficulty as a response to relationship issues and parental impingement
  • Relationship disturbances linked to unresolved parental issues

INFANT-PARENT PSYCHOTHERAPY

  • Perception of the infant is distorted by parental conflict
  • Infant is trapped in a series of reenactments or reworkings of unresolved trauma
  • Intervention aims at reconstructing past relationships and freeing infant from network of projections

LEVELS OF INTERVENTION

  • Systemic Approach:
  • Infant and parent behaviors and communication
  • Infant and parent representations

PSYCHODYNAMIC PSYCHOTHERAPY

  • Formulation of the core conflict between mother and infant
  • Focus on negative affect and its origin
  • Use of interpretive interventions
  • Focus on infant experience

INFANT-PARENT PSYCHOTHERAPY

  • Fraiberg: Ghosts in the Nursery
  • Unresolved parental conflict
  • Infant presence in the sessions
  • Emotional interactions and repetition
  • Infant as transference object

INFANT-LED PSYCHOTHERAPY

  • Increased focus on the infant as active communication partner
  • Aims to help parent see infant as autonomous and communicating
  • Techniques to show infant initiating, responding and being meaningful
  • Gives infant experience of being validated in the interaction

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+LIVING THROUGH DIFFICULT FEELINGS

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How silly of me to feel worse than usual, yet how inescapably real my feelings are.  I am in the midst of yet another experience that shows me how intimately connected the ‘stress response-calm connection’ system really is.

I had an appointment with a new oncologist in Tucson last week and my daughter and baby grandson went with me.  (They are back home 1700 miles away now.)  I have nobody to follow-up on my breast cancer treatment that ended 2 1/2 years ago, so I went to see what chances there were of maybe receiving some kind of ‘test’ that might let me know where my body now stands in its recovery.

I liked this new doctor.  Although very busy, he was at least kind.  I could tell that about him instantly and felt reassured about whatever quality of care I might receive from him (so unlike my OTHER doctor).  I am still waiting to hear specifics on the scan the doctor ordered – when, where, IF, etc.  He also ordered an immediate blood test to check for ‘cancer markers’.

I was told to call him today for the results of that test, so I did.  His nurse told me that I need to talk to him so I am waiting for his return call.

“Why should this all upset me,” I ask myself.

Then I return immediately with the opposite response, “How could it NOT be upsetting to have had cancer once, have received a nasty and not hopeful comment from my oncologist at the end of treatment, and now be returning ‘to the scene of the crime’ of cancer in my body — no matter what the outcome of these tests turns out to be?”

It’s 4:23 in the afternoon and no call yet that I know of.  Is my cell phone receiving calls today?  It often doesn’t.

What real use will the results of this blood test even be seeing that when I had two cancers in my breast, one of them ‘advanced aggressive’ and very large, my blood showed NO SIGNS of these so-called cancer markers.  I asked the doctor about this fact and he said that if there are elevated cancer markers in my blood now then at least that fact would tell him SOMETHING.

The absence of these markers, I am savvy enough to know, will offer me no form of reassurance or reason to celebrate at all.

And here I wait.

And while I do I am exquisitely aware of my hyper-activated attachment system.  I am dearly missing not one person but EVERYONE I dearly love.

That’s the main purpose of an attachment system in the first place.  When we do not feel safe and secure in the world, when we feel threatened our stress response end of the continuum screams out for CONNECTION with those who help us feel safe and secure — so we (and our body) can reestablish CALM again.

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As I have written before I never had CALM built into the center of my body-nervous system-brain in the first place — so when I perceive threat I have a super exaggerated anxiety-stress response.  It rarely starts at calm in the first place so it’s just anxiety/stress/distress piled upon more of the same and more of the same…….

And just as a tiny infant’s entire being will scream for safe and secure connection with its primary caregiver when it is stressed/distressed, mine does so now.  Only my scream long ago became a silent one.

It is especially times like this present one when it’s even more difficult for me having my loved ones so far away.  It would also be helpful if I could include more close attachments within my universe — and I also mean ‘close’ as in ‘right here where I live’.

If I were a drug user I suppose I’d be stoned right now to make this feeling go away.  Or I’d be shopping, or eating — or doing SOMETHING to diminish my discomfort.  As it is, I live with THIS FEELING as I wait

wait

wait……

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5 PM, doc called, blood tests came back without a sign of cancer – good!  Would mean a bit more if the original cancers had shown something, so waiting to see if Medicare approves the needed scan……

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+SOME PATTERNS OF ‘RELIGIOUS ABUSE’ AND THE GENE CONNECTION

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I found this sensitive, informative and thought provoking blog today (licoriceroot) that contains many posts that get me to thinking in new ways about the ‘complex’ of my own severe infant-child abuse history and its (most obvious) connection to my abusive mother’s own infant-childhood history of malevolent treatment.

One of the posts on this blog is about ‘hyperreligiosity’:  Hyperreligiosity: Fabulous Article Published Jan. 2010

I used to tract my mother’s ‘fundamental religious fanaticism’ to when I was in 10th grade and she became a member of an Assembly of God church.  The stories I wrote concerning the religious abuse I suffered post-mother’s getting religion contain traumatic experiences I suffered that I believe have interfered with my ability to be comfortable with ANYTHING that has to do with religion.

I have come to realize that the foundation of my mother’s terrible psychosis she placed me at the center of (that because she and I were ‘dying’ during her difficult breach birthing of me and that the devil had sent me to kill her – meaning to her that I was never human, that I was the devil’s child) WAS absolutely a religious-based thought and belief that not only affected my entire infant-childhood but that lasted for the rest of my mother’s life.

As my mother’s friend of 45 years told me in a recent interview about my mother’s aging years my mother had answered her knock on my mother’s door with 666 written on her forehead and hands to keep the devil from being able to find her when he came for her I realized how pervasive my mother’s religion-based terror actually was.

I further believe that someone in my mother’s deeply disturbed earliest years of life didn’t put the ‘fear of god’ into her but rather instilled in my mother the ‘fear of the devil’.  I strongly suspect that the abuse related to my mother’s deepest terrors was in some way sexually based.

I understand now that even my mother’s insane obsession with my ‘cleanliness’ was connected (wired) into her by something she had experienced as a child that she was told was ‘dirty’.

In fact, I can consider the entire violent abusive pattern of my 18-year childhood with my mother as being connected to religious abuse within a system that could not resolve the range of ambiguities – the grey scale – of good-bad within her Borderline body-brain.

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I went looking for the source of the article posted on the licoriceroot blog and found it here:

Website:  The Hindu:  Arts/Magazine

Article: A Japanese genius and his God module!

By Dr. Ennapadam S. Krishnamoorthy

This article discusses the idea of there being a ‘God module’ in the brain as it presents neurobiological underpinnings for the human experience of religion – and its experience of THE EXTREME.

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I also located this article posted on The New York Times site November 14, 2009

The Evolution of the God Gene by Nicholas Wade

IN the Oaxaca Valley of Mexico, the archaeologists Joyce Marcus and Kent Flannery have gained a remarkable insight into the origin of religion.

During 15 years of excavation they have uncovered not some monumental temple but evidence of a critical transition in religious behavior. The record begins with a simple dancing floor, the arena for the communal religious dances held by hunter-gatherers in about 7,000 B.C. It moves to the ancestor-cult shrines that appeared after the beginning of corn-based agriculture around 1,500 B.C., and ends in A.D. 30 with the sophisticated, astronomically oriented temples of an early archaic state

This and other research is pointing to a new perspective on religion, one that seeks to explain why religious behavior has occurred in societies at every stage of development and in every region of the world. Religion has the hallmarks of an evolved behavior, meaning that it exists because it was favored by natural selection. It is universal because it was wired into our neural circuitry before the ancestral human population dispersed from its African homeland.”

And…..

It is easier to see from hunter-gatherer societies how religion may have conferred compelling advantages in the struggle for survival. Their rituals emphasize not theology but intense communal dancing that may last through the night. The sustained rhythmic movement induces strong feelings of exaltation and emotional commitment to the group. Rituals also resolve quarrels and patch up the social fabric.”

[Read entire article by clicking HERE]

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After you take a look at the above article, consider this also:  Google search ‘genes dancing’ and a fascinating universe of information will appear before your eyes.  I already knew about this 2006 study that comes up with the Google search term combination of ‘Israel genes dancing’:

‘Dancing’ Genes Discovered by Israeli Researcher

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These articles I mention here point to a fascinating connection for me.  When an individual’s actions appear to us as unbelievable, we can think a bit more deeply about who and how these people are in the world.

The insane infant-child abuse my mother perpetrated against me involved a distortion in how her original genetic potential displayed itself, just as it undoubtedly did for the young paranoid schizophrenic man who was capable of perpetrating the horrific violence displayed in last Saturday’s Arizona shooting.

See post:  +IS MENTAL ILLNESS THE COST OF OUR SPECIES’ GREATEST GIFTS?

I don’t believe that our continued survival as a species was ever determined by what tore us apart.  Our survival depended then – and still does today – on what brings us together and binds us together.

When we look at extremes of abuse and perpetration of violence and trauma we are looking at the ABSENCE of the positive traits that ensured our specie’s reproductive fitness and the continuance of our genetic lines.

Rather than try to examine the faults of any single individual representative of our species I believe it would be far more helpful and productive to search for the malevolent conditions that existed in their earliest caregiving environment that CHANGED how their genes manifested themselves during the earliest critical windows of their development.

If we can manage to take a step back as we examine human behavior that represents a ‘tearing apart’ of the fabric of healthily bonded social connections and their expressions we will begin to notice how clearly these negative patterns reflect malevolence in an environment of deprivation and trauma.  The negative displays the absence of the positive.

As we begin to focus on the necessary POSTIVE qualities that contribute to building the best body-brain possible in a new little human being we will automatically lessen the potential for a lifetime of trouble that growing a body-brain in a malevolent environment causes.

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+SOME LINKS FOR CHILD ABUSE TRAUMA BLOGS I VISITED TODAY

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I occasionally get the bright idea that I could wander around the web and find sites related to healing infant-child abuse trauma so that I could promote my blog-info in a little comment inviting readers to come over here for a visit to my Stop the Storm blog.  The only problem is that I never get that far and instead end up wanting to present other people’s blog work here for my readers to visit, learn from and support.

So, a word of thanks to any of my blog readers who might leave a link to my blog when they go visit someone else’s and leave a word about my work in a comment.  Just copy this and paste into your comment https://stopthestorm.wordpress.com/

So what follows are some links for places I visited today!  (I was following a Google search for ‘child abuse trauma blog’)

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I want to highlight a post on the blog of Dr. Kathleen Young (a therapist in Chicago) entitled Treating Trauma: Top 10 for 2010.  These are among these top posts Dr. Young mentions:

Depersonalization Disorder. In this most read post of 2010 I defined depersonalization, as a normative experience, a symptom of other diagnoses or a type of dissociative disorder. I also shared research that explored the role of childhood interpersonal trauma in depersonalization disorder.

Complex PTSD describes a variant of PTSD that applies to those who have experienced prolonged, repeated abuse from an early age. This was one of my favorite posts of the year as it is at the heart of much of my practice. It was also inspired by a fantastic training I attended in 2010 Contextual Therapy: Treating Survivors of Complex Trauma.

Verbal Abuse: Words Can Hurt. I am so glad this topic got a lot of attention, given how little we understand the impact of verbal abuse. Here I shared research that indicates that parental verbal abuse alone can impact the child’s brain development in ways that lead to language processing issues and symptoms common to complex PTSD.

Understanding Dissociation was another favorite post of mine. Dissociation and trauma often go hand in hand, and yet it is not well understood even by trauma therapists! One take away idea: while dissociation helps you survive childhood trauma, it may be maladaptive later in life.

Does Self-Care Mean Others Don’t? is the most recent post in my top ten and part of a bigger conversation about self-care. The comments in response to both these posts are well worth reading and my favorite part of this entry. Your feedback and responses make me think and grow. That is what I love about blogging and what keeps me committed to it as we get ready for 2011.

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Here is an informative article posted online by Prevent Child Abuse America:  Fact Sheet:  Emotional Child Abuse

Click here for the main website for Prevent Child Abuse America where the following can be found among the many informative links on this site:

Here are some helpful tips:

Recognizing Child Abuse: What You Should Know [pdf]

An Approach to Preventing Child Abuse [pdf]

Ten Ways to Help Prevent Child Abuse [pdf]

Twelve Alternatives to Lashing Out at Your Child [pdf]

For even more helpful Prevention tips click here.

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I found this excellent post on the Nursing School Blog that includes a list with an active link along with a brief description for

40 Excellent Blogs for PTSD Support

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I also found this Child Abuse Effects blog hosted by survivor/educator Darlene Barriere (Canadian).  Worth a visit and a click around – lots of information from professionals and readers alike along the left side of the blog.

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Child Abuse Survivor

An interesting blog —   “About a male survivor of childhood abuse, and the issues he faces in adult life.”

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Take a meander through the list on the right side of this one:   

Dr. Laura blog

America‘s #1 Female Talk Radio Host

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Here is a blog about child abuse though I can’t quite figure out what it is actually CALLED!  My Windows says it has something to do with someone named Karen Holmes – comes complete with heart-touching comments —   CLICK HERE to read

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An Interview with Author Chris Knight Capone by KevaD

An Interview with Author Chris Knight Capone

Chris Knight Capone’s moving novel “Son of Scarface” is not another book about Al Capone. What it is, is the unnerving story of an abused child, through the eyes of the child abused, seeking to unravel the mysterious life of his beloved father and the mother who physically and emotionally battered her son and daughter.

“Son of Scarface” is a book about healing and the tribulations of one man’s lifelong struggle to identify the past and heritage hidden from and denied him.”

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Here on SelfGrowth.com (scroll down a little) there’s a

list of Overcoming Trauma Websites.

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This entire (2001) article is available free online by clicking on the title:

The Role of Childhood Interpersonal Trauma in Depersonalization Disorder

By Daphne Simeon, M.D., Orna Guralnik, Psy.D., James Schmeidler, Ph.D., Beth Sirof, M.A., and Margaret Knutelska, M.A.

In conclusion, this study is the first systematic demonstration of an association between depersonalization disorder and childhood interpersonal trauma and suggests that emotional abuse may play an important role in the genesis of depersonalization symptoms. In contrast to physical and sexual abuse, psychological maltreatment appears underestimated and neglected in the psychiatric literature and merits more attention. Finally, the various dissociative disorders may lie on a spectrum of severity associated with different types of childhood traumatic antecedents.”

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+PORGES’ IMPORTANT NEW BOOK TO HELP INFANT-CHILD ABUSE SURVIVORS

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I have absolute confidence that this new book authored by Dr. Stephen W. Porges that is nearing its release will be of the greatest help to survivors of severe early infant-child abuse and trauma:

The Polyvagal Theory: Neurophysiological Foundations of Emotions, Attachment, Communication, and Self-regulation

This title is available for pre-order at Amazon.com by clicking on this title, and at a very reasonable price!

Product Description

A collection of groundbreaking research by a leading figure in neuroscience. This book compiles, for the first time, Stephen W. Porges’s decades of research. The world’s leading expert on the autonomic nervous system, Porges is the mind behind the groundbreaking Polyvagal Theory, which has startling implications for the treatment of anxiety, depression, trauma, and autism.

About the Author

Stephen W. Porges, PhD, is a professor of psychiatry and the director of the Brain-Body Center at the University of Illinois at Chicago.

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I encountered reference to Porges’ work on the polyvagal theory several years ago, and as patience would have it – here comes HIS BOOK!

I posted this reference a week ago to his Australian seminar to be held November 2, 2011:

Polyvagal theory, oxytocin and the neurobiology of love and attachment:  A two day seminar with Stephen Porges and Sue Carter

The objective of this workshop is to describe current research and theory in behavioural neuroscience that can be translated into demystifying the features of many emotional, psychological and behavioural problems faced by children, young people and adults. It will provide invaluable insights into breaking maladaptive cycles to enable clients to experience states of calmness and to feel safe with other people.

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I fully believe that Porges’ book will do exactly this:  “…provide invaluable insights into breaking maladaptive cycles to enable clients to experience states of calmness and to feel safe with other people.

In this short sentence I found a great resonance with what my body knows:  I DO NOT feel safe with other people!

What does Porges’ work have to teach me about this consequence that was built into my body from birth at the same time that GREAT harm and danger ‘from other people’ so traumatized me?

I am most curious to find out!

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+WHAT MATTERS MOST – THE MOTHER-INFANT RELATIONSHIP

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My daughter and my 9-month-old grandson are down here visiting me in Arizona from North Dakota for three very short days.  I, of course, am in heaven as I bask in the delight of every single instant of their presence.  And in every interaction I observe between this most loving mother and the tiny growing person who is her son I am learning, learning, learning!

Yesterday as I waited in the lobby for my fuel assistance appointment I glimpsed a magazine picture of some primate specie’s mother and her infant.  The caption described how that mother would not put her baby down for the first four months of its life.  What has happened to humans in our culture that has made them actually believe that a baby under the age of one can be ‘spoiled’?  How bizarre.  How dangerous, and how bizarre!

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Knowing what I do now about human infant development I know that what I witness of my daughter’s interactions with her infant son are building the neuronal wiring of his brain along with its connection to the way his entire body (nervous system and immune system included) that he will live in and with for the rest of his life.  There is NOTHING on earth that could possibly match the job she is doing in its vital importance.  NOTHING!

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They are both snuggled under a warm down comforter on the big soft guest bed at the moment.  The little one was exhausted, but if there’s one thing that little person HATES it is sleeping!  His mantra must read, “WOE IS ME!  Sleeping is such GREAT SORROW!”  As I watched her take the time to tenderly sooth him into sleep (which of course can happen more easily because he has no siblings to be demanding his mother’s attention) I noticed that even with his eyes glued shut in near-slumber his tiny fingers continued to move and their stillness marked his final succumbing passage into his much-needed state of sleep.

As I silently witnessed the half hour process that baby and mother were engaged in I could see how she is my grandson’s external EMOTIONAL regulator at the same time she is helping him gain his own physiological abilities to regulate his emotions AND his body.  Both are intimately intertwined and at this stage of his development are also intimately intertwined with his mother’s assistance at regulation that he will eventually be able to accomplish on his own.

But NOT YET!  He needs his attachment to his mother — and reciprocally her attachment to him — to continue his growth and development as much as he needs air to breath.  When he needs her, and returns to the snuggles of her most-loving embraces I watch as he DEVOURS her presence with ALL of his senses.  His entire BEING is engaged in relationship with her.  I do not believe that it is possible for an infant to be more safely and securely attached to his mother than my grandson is to his.

There is NOTHING — NOTHING — on this glorious earth of ours that could make me happier than to know this!

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As my grandson so struggles NOT to sleep, no matter how tired he his, I can at the same time clearly see four power-full characteristics within this infant that I can rest knowing will NEVER be taken away from him by his parents:  His desire (passion), his will, his determination and his stamina.

He WANTS and DESIRES to be most actively engaged with everything in his world.  He has great WILL that HE can make continuous active engagement possible at the same time he is determined that what he desires can happen if he applies himself — ENOUGH!

Of course at his young age he cannot yet mediate any of these streams of his life force consciously, but as he gains increasing ability to regulate his own body-brain-mind-self he will be able to.  He must have his early caregivers ‘carry’ him through his first critical stages of growth and development until he can.  His caregivers are literally sharing his life with him at the same time he can ‘borrow’ from them all the appropriate regulatory functions that a big body has and a little one doesn’t.

What my grandson’s parents have given this baby so far SHINES from his entire being with true joy and a love for human interaction.  His ability to communicate with his mother is comprehensive and complete.  She guarantees to him a safe haven from which he can continue to expand himself into the world around him.

I notice that many of the most important interactions between mother and infant happen (as Dr. Allan Schore describes) in the millisecond-speed range.  I placed myself 8′ away from him on the living room floor and invited him to come to me.  At nearly the speed of light he turned his head backward toward his mother, located exactly where she was, caught her smile, her nod and the look in her eye — INSTANTLY — as he received all the information he needed to begin his movements toward me.

The word ‘stanchion’ comes to mind.  She is his safety and security ‘prop’ at the same time she is the ‘archway’ through which he is growing into his own body and his own self.  All of these interactions are BUILDING him on all his levels — literally within his physiology.

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My daughter is a more than full-time worker.  Her son has primarily been cared for by his father when she is gone, sometimes by a part-time babysitter, but at 9 months of age it is CLEAR that his primary attachment is with his mother — as nature intends it.  From now until he reaches about-age-one his primary attachment to his mother will matter THE MOST no matter where he is physically in relationship to her.

His INNER attachment to her, the patterns of rupture and repair created by his distance and nearness to her will continue to build themselves into the body-brain-mind-self platform within him that will govern his THOUGHT patterns, his stress-calm response system patterns, and how many of his genes will manifest themselves for the rest of his life.  My grandson is most importantly building his relationship with his MOTHER into himself at the same time the nature and quality of that primary relationship is BUILDING HIM.

My greatest joy is that everything is happening optimally for this little new human being.  At the same time I know that everything that is going so right for my grandson and my daughter is showing me what went so wrong between my mother and me.

Never did my mother peacefully sleep with infant me wrapped in love beside her.  My daughter asked me if it makes me feel sad to know all of this now.

No, I honestly don’t think that it does.  I believe I have cleaned my ‘mother-daughter’ house so well now that all that is left are the facts — the reality of what went so wrong for my mother as an infant changed her into the monster that could not mother me.

What matters to me is on the side of the positive:  What is necessary for mothering an infant to go RIGHT?  What happens when these necessary factors are missing in a mother-infant relationship is a tragedy that was/is nearly ALWAYS preventable.

THAT is what matters to me.

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+IN THE MIDST OF CYCLES OF TRAUMA: THE ANGUISH-ANGER CONNECTION

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I have frequently said on this blog that I don’t believe the actual specifics of our infant-child abuse and trauma experiences matter in the bigger picture as we work to heal ourselves as adults.  All survivors have a history or a herstory that CAN contain the specifics we might remember.  I don’t encourage people to ‘go back’ to look for the specifics of abuse experiences, either.  In the end I believe that what matters MOST to all survivors is how the early infant-child trauma and abuse we suffered, most often coupled with and a result of inadequate caregiving that deprived us of the safe and secure attachment we so naturally and desperately needed, changed the course of our physiological development in our body-brain.

THOSE changes are what we need to discover and begin to describe to our self and to others.  Those changes that our Trauma Altered Development caused in our body determine what kind of a life experience we have.  Those changes are ALWAYS related to our having had an overtaxed stress response system at the same time we had an underdeveloped or undeveloped safe and secure attachment system built into us.

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By means of illustration I will present here a very taxing and stressful experience that I have been involved with for the past three months that finally today reached completion.  There is a federal fuel assistance program administered by each state – on the county level through Community Action Programs.  The rules change at the same time they make NO common sense.  I will not go into the details here, but being poor and having to rely on the ‘system’ is ALWAYS stressful.

With my extreme anxiety problems, including my social anxiety and my inability to utilize spoken language when under duress are direct consequences of the severe abuse I suffered PARTICULARLY before the age of one.

Every single nasty, horrible, terrifying, abusive and traumatic experience I endured with my mother for the 18 years of my infant-childhood of course contributed to the mess my nervous system and brain are in today.  At the same time, as I repeat, it isn’t that on this or that particular day my mother hit me with a belt versus a wooden coat hangar versus a flapjack turner.  It doesn’t matter specifically that on this or that day she forced me to eat a bar of Dove hand soap versus swallow heaping tablespoons of black pepper or spoonfuls of laundry soap.

What matters is that I experienced Trauma Altered Development as my body-brain developed as a consequence of the extreme stress-duress I was exposed to.

I suffered all the way through these past three months trying to jump through the right hoops at the right time in the right way to get the fuel assistance I needed.  What today’s’ final leg of the journey brought to mind is that the anxiety, fears, distress of this experience built itself over this time into a state for which I only had one word:  ANGUISH.

I recognized this state, this emotion in my body and realized how fundamentally familiar it is to me from the abuse experiences of my childhood.

Then I went to online Webster’s for the definition of ANGUISH and discovered that in its roots it is directly related to ANGER.

Anguish, to me, feels more related to sadness, so what is the anger connection?

This led me to reconsider my own ideas about the patterns of stress response to a challenge in the environment that leads first through

anger:  trying to meet the challenge successfully using skills we have used in the past – if this works, we are supposed to move back to a center set point in our nervous system-body of peaceful calm.

– if anger doesn’t work, we move into the next spot on a stress response cycle – fear.  In this state we realize that what we have learned in the past is NOT going to solve the problem.  Quickly we utilize whatever we can figure out to move BACK into the anger state where energy is available to get us out of whatever mess we are in.  Sometimes simply freezing, running, etc. is all we have

– but if NOTHING we can find to do, nothing whatsoever works, then we move into sadness – which can turn into hopelessness and despair.  But in this spot on the cycle-wheel-circle we are MOST prepared to learn something entirely new – if we are open to this possibility and often just plain fortunate.

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So, as I considered the connection today between anguish and anger in our English language I began to wonder if this emotion is the connection point between sadness and anger if we DON’T get stuck in sadness but end up experiencing emotions far more powerful – and to me, far more disturbing.

Anguish happens when we are pushed to our limits and are forced to endure anyway.

As I remember the anguish of my childhood, as I think for example about my mother’s beatings that could go on and on and on and on in FULL force – that feeling without words of “I CAN BEAR NO MORE” – for me – is the place that anguish has past anything like ‘ordinary’ pain and sadness.

When we are in fact in true NEED of something and at the same time dependent upon especially ANOTHER PERSON to get our needs met, on our own we cannot escape the anguish state easily.

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I figured out for myself years ago that my anger is ALWAYS connected to a true injustice.  ALWAYS.

That I do not tend to recognize the anger doesn’t probably mean that it doesn’t exist.  I was NEVER angry at my mother – never – even today.

But, true, I AM angry at the idiocy of our government’s ineptitude when it comes to making programs for those in poverty accessible.  I could write a LOT about this point – and my heart breaks for those in much worse situations than mine – also a topic I could write a LOT about.

But to make this short, I will simply say that those of us who were severely abused as infant-children are the MOST likely to be the MOST poor and in the MOST need for help – specifically BECAUSE of the consequences of the abuse that altered our physiological development in all KINDS of ways that continue to make life difficult for us for our lifetime.

ANGUISH is very nearly an intolerable state – but I believe also that it is the state we survivors spent MOST of our developmental years in.  Anger – as I define it is the most active start point for our stress response system to enter when we are challenged by difficulties.  Our little body could NOT overcome the monsters that hurt us, and we were left to degenerate along the stress response cycle points without reprieve or resolution.  Our entire body-brain has paid a price for that – and in the end it is our experience of the emotional-physiological state of ANGUISH that most closely mirrors the state we spent our infant-childhoods within.

What followed today for me finally was a solution that means I will receive the fuel assistance funds I need.  This means I can experience RELIEF which soothes away the ANGUISH – at least for now and in connection with this situation.

How did RELIEF feel to me at the end of a long drawn out horrible beating when I was little?  Did I feel ‘good’ when the beating ceased?  Not possible.

These conditions built my body-brain at the same time they built themselves into it/me.  To have experiences as an adult that create parallel emotions within me is very difficult.  We don’t need someone to physically BEAT us to experience the same cycles within our body that we did when we were little and in the midst of trauma.

And that is a fact.

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