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*Our Earliest Start
*MICRO RNA – GENETICS – EPIGENETICS
*Notes on Teicher
TEICHER ON THE ALTERED BRAIN (duplicate?)
+ BRAIN PARTS — INFO ON BRAIN REGIONS AND FUNCTIONS
*Notes on Hippocampus
++BROCA’S AREA (related to language)
++HIPPOCAMPUS
++LIMBIC SYSTEM
++User’s Guide – notes on Ratey’s writings
+FEEDBACK FEEDFORWARD
Child abuse and brain development link
++CONSCIOUSNESS AND ATTENTION
*Forming Reality
++DAMAGE AND REPAIR
++LE DOUX ON BUILDING THE BRAIN
++My theory of personality – self
+EARLY CHILDHOOD ADVERSE EXPERIENCES
+Effortful Control
+RESEARCH LINK ON EXECUTIVE FUNCTION, ABUSE, BRAIN DEVELOPMENT
+SIEGEL ON MINDS CREATE MINDS
+SIEGEL ON MINDSIGHT
+ Simple small town desert living on the American-Mexico Border
++”The Demise of Mildred” – (her story in two parts)
++AMYGDALA
++LE DOUX ON THE AMYGDALA
+SIEGEL ON TRAUMA AND THE AMYGDALA
++BRAIN LATERALIZATION
**Containment and the hemispheres
++NOTES ON RIGHT BRAIN DEVELOPMENT
+SEIGEL ON BRAIN LATERALIZATION
+SEIGEL ON LATERALIZATION (more)
+SIEGEL – LEFT BRAIN – REASON
+SIEGEL ON BRAIN HEMISPHERE CONSCOUSNESS
+SIEGEL ON LEFT BRAIN DEVELOPMENT
+SIEGEL ON RIGHT BRAIN DEVELOPMENT
+FREE PREVIEW OF MILDRED’S WRITINGS
+Maternal Socialization
+PERRY’S BOOK – (BOY/DOG)
+ATTACHMENT
**ATTACHMENT WITHIN ENVIRONMENTS
*WHEN BEING SELFISH IS TOO SMALL A CONCEPT
**DISORGANIZED THINKING – DISSOCIATION
*HYPNOSIS AND ATTENTIONAL CONTROL
**Dissociation
**Dr. Siegel on organization-reorganization of the SELF
**Further notes on attachment
**James Hillman – Soul’s Code – (on being broken)
++MORE HILLMAN ON TRUE LOVE
**My notes on infant attachment
**NOTES FROM FIELD ON ADULT ATTACHMENT
**NOTES FROM FOX ON HIGH RISK INFANT – ATTACHMENT
**Notes on “A Child Called “IT””
**OXYTOCIN AND ATTACHMENT
*Oxytocin – Chapter 4: The body’s control centers
*Oxytocin – Chapter 5: How oxytocin works
*Oxytocin – Chapter 6: Oxytocin’s effects
*Oxytocin – Chapter 7: The oxytocin tree
*Oxytocin – Chapter 8: Nursing: Oxytocin’s Starring Role
**Siegel – Attachment Measurement (kid and adult)
**’DIS-ASSOCIATION’ BETWEEN RIGHT-LEFT BRAIN HEMISPHERES AND DISMISSIVE-AVOIDANT INSECURE ATTACHMENT DISORDERS
*AMAZING FACTS – CANNABINOID SYSTEM ESSAYS/RESEARCH
*ENDOCANNABINOID SYSTEM AND HUMAN REPRODUCTION
*AMAZING FACTS ABOUT OUR BODY’S OWN VERSION OF ‘POT’
*Evolutionary Origins of Endocannabinoid System
*Endocannabinoids – Fertility, pregnancy, lactation, infants and children
*Endocannabinoid Protection and Regulation
*Endocannabinoids, Pain, Depression and Grief
*Endocannabinoids, Digestion, Food Intake, Energy Balance
*Endocannabinoid Control of Skeleton
*Endocannabinoid System, Fear and Anxiety
*Ambivalent Attachment
*ATTACHMENT (chapter 5 notes)
*Disorganized angel-demon thinking
*Nature heals – attachment to nature
*Notes on Schore
++NOTES ON SCHORE – EMOTIONS
++SCHORE ON NERVOUS SYSTEM AND EMOTIONS
++NOTES ON SCHORE – GENETICS
++NOTES ON SCHORE – RELATIONAL TRAUMA
++SCHORE – IMPLICATIONS FOR SELF PSYCHOLOGY
++SCHORE ON MATERNAL-INFANT MIND SHAPING
++NOTES ON SCHORE – RIGHT BRAIN
++SCHORE ON DEVELOPMENT OF RIGHT BRAIN
++NOTES ON SCHORE – SOCIAL REFERENCING
++SCHORE ON PROJECTIVE IDENTIFICATION
++SCHORE ON ENERGY SYSTEMS
++SCHORE ON PLAY
++SCHORE ON SELF REFLECTION
+SCHORE ON BRAIN AND NERVOUS SYSTEM DEVELOPMENT
*SIEGEL – MINDSIGHT VIDEO NOTES Feb. 2014
++IMMUNE RESPONSE TO MATERNAL SEPARATION
+ADULT ATTACHMENT
+DISORIENTED-DISORGANIZED ATTACHMENT
*Further notes on attachment
*GENETICS OF DISORGANIZED ATTACHMENT
*Introduction on attachment disorders
+EMPATHY
+NOTES FROM STEKLIS AND KLING ON NEUROBIOLOGY OF AFFILIATION
+PANKSEPP ON BRAIN OPIOIDS
+PLAY
+SCHORE ON DISSOCIATION
+SEIGEL ON EARLY TRAUMA, I CALL A BROKEN HEART
+SIEGEL – “CANNOT CLASSIFY” ATTACHMENT DISORDER
+SIEGEL – ANTICIPATION, TIME AND COHERENCE OF MIND
+SIEGEL – DESCRIPTION OF ATTACHMENT STYLES
+SIEGEL – DISORIENTED MIND
+SIEGEL – DISSOCIATION notes
+SIEGEL – DYADIC STATES OF MIND
+SIEGEL – EARNED SECURE ATTACHMENT
+SIEGEL – EMOTIONAL REGULATION AND DISORGANIZED ATTACHMENT
+SIEGEL – UNRESOLVED TRAUMA – INFLUENCE SELF-ORGANIZATION THROUGH GENERATIONS
+SIEGEL ON ADULT UNRESOLVED ATTACHMENTS
+SIEGEL ON BRAIN INTEGRATION PROCESSES – SELF ORGANIZATION
+SIEGEL ON DEVELOPING CHILD’S BRAIN – ATTACHMENT
EMPATHY
*Empathy preschoolers
*Notes – Bateman and Fonagy
*Pupil size in empathy
+FARROW ON EMPATHY
*COLLINS ON RESPONDING TO NEED – Part One
**Attachment Styles from Collin’s Article
*COLLINS ON RESPONDING TO NEED – Part Two
*COLLINS ON RESPONDING TO NEED – Part Three
*COLLINS ON RESPONDING TO NEED – Part Four
*COLLINS ON RESPONDING TO NEED – Part Five
*COLLINS ON RESPONDING TO NEED – Part Six
**Attachment Styles and Caregiving from Collins Article
*Attachment Simplified – Our Infant Attachment Systems Organize our Brain-Body-Mind-Self
*Attachment Simplified – Secure Attachment (Organized)
*Attachment Simplified – Organized Insecure Attachment – Avoidant-Dismissive
*Attachment Simplified – Organized Insecure Attachment – Preoccupied-Ambivalent
*Attachment Simplified – Disorganized Insecure Attachment – Disorganized-Disoriented
*Attachment Simplified – Organized Secure Attachment – Earned Secure
*Attachment Simplified – Disorganized Insecure Attachment – Cannot Classify
*Attachment Simplified – Attachments in Therapy
*Attachment Simplified – The More Complicated Yet CRITICAL Information
*Attachment Simplified – Still More Complicated Information Including ‘Feeling Felt’ and ‘Healing in Solitude’
*Keltner (2009) chapter on compassion
*SYMPTOMS: 120809 working notes
*SYMPTOMS: 120909 Scan of Teicher’s Research – Trauma Altered Development Paper
+My Childhood
*’HEIDI’ WAS MY BIBLE – THE MOUNTAIN RAISED MY SOUL
*A FEW OF MY CHILDHOOD HANDMADE GREETING CARDS
*Age 17 – The Cinnamon Calf
*Age 6-18: Alaskan Homesteading Childhood – My Mother’s Letters
*Book Chapters approaching edit: A Shrinking Pinhole of Light
+CHAPTER ONE: PIG
+CHAPTER TWO: BATHTUB
*CONSTRUCTING TIMELINE OF MY CHILDHOOD
*Follow These Links to Photographs from My Childhood
*Litany from Start to Finish
*BEING WITNESS TO MY OWN ABUSE
*Me in California Photographs
+Age 11 – Canoe
+My Childhood Art Work – What Little There Is of It
++MY CHILDHOOD STORIES
**MY NOTES ON MOTHER’S DARK RAINBOW DREAM
*Dad’s April 2, 1960 Letter to Alaska Land Office
*MY CHILDHOOD — MEMORY FRAGMENT NOTES
*My Childhood Guardian Angel on the Mountain Top
MY BABY BOOK
*SCAN OF MY ‘NONEXISTENT’ BABY BOOK
*1951 – October 15 – Linda’s 6-week Checkup (and brother John)
*AGE 2 – CINDY BORN – 1953
*MY INTRODUCTION TO MOTHER’S 1953 DIARY
**1953 – MOTHER’S DIARY – PART ONE
**1953 – MOTHER’S DIARY – PART TWO
*MY MOTHER NEVER OUTGREW HER DOLLS
*Age 3-4: Link to my mother’s 1955 diary
*Age 3 – 3 children with grandmother, closeup of me and grandmother
*Age 3 – THE TOILET BOWL
*Age 4 – THE BEDSPREAD
*Age 4 – THE FIREWORKS
*Age 5 – Childhood Stories Sept. 1956 through Aug. 1957
*Age 5 – Losing my grandmother
*Age 5 – THE BUBBLE GUM
+++Further notes on ‘Bubble Gum’
*Age 5 – BUBBLE GUM ‘EPISODE’ IN MY MOTHER’S 1957 DIARY
THE BUBBLE GUM REVISITED
*Age 5 – THE FOX
*Age 5 – SHARON AND THE FIRE ANTS
*AGE 5 – Grandmother’s Blue Parakeet
*Age 5 – The ‘Famous’ Log House – Eagle River, Alaska
*Age 5 – kindergarten 1956-57
*Age 5 – Me in my parents’ June 1957 letters
*Age 5 in Mother’s July 7, 1957 – Bad child, Good child
*Age 6 – Childhood Stories Sept. 1957 through Aug. 1958
*Age 6 – THE MARBLES
*AGE 6 – FIRST GRADE — NIGHT ON THE STOOL
*Age 6 – Me and Brownies in my mothers 6-4-1958 letter
*Age 6 – Where Am I? Not In These Xmas Tree Photographs
*Age 6 – 1st grade individual picture
*Age 6 – 1st grade report card 1957-58
*Age 6 – April 1958 – mountain drawings
*Age 6 – Mother’s letter – purchase of the turquoise coat
*Age 6 – Jan. 1958 First Grade in Mother’s Letters
+Age 7 – Childhood Stories Sept. 1958 through Aug. 1959
*1959 – Photograph of My Angel Mountain
*Age 7 – Sad me, homestead birthday BBQ
*Age 7 – What I knew at Easter, 1959
*TURNING SEVEN
*Age 7 – 1958 Bockstahler’s Cabin – place of my 7th birthday
*Age 7 – Me In Mother’s Letters
*AGE 7 – MUD PUDDLE INCIDENT
*Age 7 – Mother’s Letter (#2) April 14, 1959 – The Homesteading Obsession Grows
*Age 7 – Dad and 4 kids on big rock above house spot
*Age 7 – Homestead Pictures (links)
*Age 7 – 1959 – New Kids on the Mountain Homestead
*Age 7 – 5-3-1959 Letter – Classic Homesteading Stress
*Age 7 – 5-18-1959 Letter – More Classic Homesteading Stress
*Age 7 – 1959 Walking the Mountain
*Age 7 – May 1959 – Link to 2 Photos – Walking the Mountain Road
*Age 7 – Precious moment with siblings, father and snow
*Age 7 – 1959 July birthday on homestead – I look sad!
*Age 7 – I loved walking this mountain road
*Age 8 – Photograph – Me, Smokey and Snow
Age 8 – May 7, 1960 – FINALLY! A Happy Picture — all 4 of us!
*Age 7 – 1958-59 2nd grade report card
*Age 8 – Childhood Stories Sept. 1959 through Aug. 1960
*Age 8 – Letters – “Troubles With Linda”
*Age 8 – Me and Cindy Walking Up Mountain In the Snow (link to photo)
*Age 8 – 1960 Breakup Walking up Mountain
*AGE 8 – MY BLACK RABBIT, PETER
*Comment on Age 8 – My Black Rabbit Peter
*Age 8 – THE PEACEFUL DAY (letter)
*Age 8 – Homesteading – On the Edge of Madness
*Age 8 – The Reindeer Envelope – My Own Art Work Analyzed By Me – The Art Therapist
*Age 8 – THE SHREW
*Age 8 – My Letter to Grandma 7-18-1960
*Age 8 – 1959 Photographs of Us and Homestead
+Age 8 – TWO DAYS BEFORE MY 9th BIRTHDAY (mother’s letter)
*Age 8 – BLOODY NOSE
*Age 9 – Childhood Stories Sept. 1960 through Aug. 1961
*Age 9 – Continually Undermining Linda
*Age 9 – Mother’s Letters – Multiple Moves
*Age 9 – JOHN and the CHERRY TREE
*Age 9 – Happy Photo of Me and Baby David
*Age 9 – October 4, 1960 Letter — Terrible Parental Financial Stress
*AGE 9 – THE TROUBLES OF JOHN
*Age 9 – 1960-61 4th grade report card
*Age 10 – Childhood Stories Sept. 1961 through Aug. 1962
*Age 10 – Picture of my brother John and me
*Age 10 – Me in Mother’s Letters
*Age 10 – NIGHTMARES AND BED WETTING
*Age 10 – THE SHAMPOO LIE AND RUNNING AWAY
*Age 10 — 1962 Civil Defense Letter from School
*Age 10 – 1960-61 fantasy locked in the semi trailer
*Age 10 – 5th grade 1961-62
*Age 11 – Childhood Stories Sept. 1962 through Aug. 1963
*Age 11 – Me in Mother’s Letters
*Age 11 – MY EYEBROWS
*Age 11 – My May 30, 1963 Letter to Grandma
*Age 11 – 1962-63 6th grade report card
*Age 11 1962-63 6th grade class picture
*Age 12 – Childhood Stories Sept. 1963 through Aug. 1964
*Age 12 – link to photograph of kids and mom by cabin (trip to Santa Fe?)
*Age 12 – Trip to Santa Fe – Mom and Kids at Grand Canyon
*Age 12 – My Story of the Great Alaskan Earthquake March 27, 1964 and My Menarche
*Age 13+ – MY MOTHER’S RIDICULOUS LIST
*Age 14 – DIRTY DIAPER AND PEPPLES IN MY KNEES
*Age 14 – Sept. 1965 through Aug. 1966
+Age 14 – SCRUBBED IN THE TUB
+Age 14 – MIRACLE IN THE PARKING LOT – DISSOCIATION
*Age 14 – SILENT TREATMENT
*Age 14 – Gardening and the Sabotage
*Age 15 – MY ‘VISION’ – ALONE IN THE WOODS SINGING
*Age 15 – FORCED TO WATCH AN ALASKAN SUNRISE
*Age 17 – What My Parents Taught Me About Racism
*Age 18 – LEADING UP TO GONE FROM HOME
*MY INTRODUCTION TO MY MOTHER’S 1945 DIARY
*CIRCUMSTANCES OF MY BIRTH
*CHILDHOOD DISSOCIATION – WHAT HAPPENED TO ME WHERE IT MATTERS MOST
+NOTES – TIME PASSING IN MY CHILDHOOD
*SILENCE
*THE DANGERS OF MEMORY RETRIEVAL
*FURTHER UNDERSTANDINGS ABOUT DISSOCIATION
*THE ADVANTAGES OF DISCLOSURE
*Ages 6 and 7 – Link to post about my mother’s strange sexual obsessions regarding me
*Age 17 – Linda’s Senior High School Picture 1969
Book
** Seeking
***More notes on Siegel’s writings
***mother
***Notes on Siegel’s writings
***Overwhelmed
***Parenting
***Symptoms
***Trauma
**Accidental
**Different Brain
**Forsaken
**How do I remember?
**I will have to end this book…
**Lies about Linda
**Lost
**Missing
**On the edge of genius
**Prosody of speech
**Relaxing into the self
**Sacrificed
**Shame
**Special
**Survival
**Syntropy (negentropy)
**What circle is this?
**Words
*Notes on writing a first book
++Timeline
+ADULT ATTACHMENT INTERVIEW PROTOCOL
+ATTACHMENT – BEING A SELF VERSUS BEING AN OBJECT
+BLOG STATS 2010 – TOP POSTS
+CLEAR LINK BETWEEN CHILD ABUSE AND SUBSTANCE P (FOR PAIN)
+SUBSTANCE PAIN AND CHILD ABUSE – ARTICLE LINK
+CRITICAL INFO ON TRAUMA AND THE BODY VIA VAGUS NERVE (ANS)
+DECEMBER 2010 IMPORTANT POSTS on Trauma Altered Development
+DISSOCIATION, NERVOUS SYSTEM SHAME REACTION, SUICIDE
+Dr. Teicher’s ARTICLE ON TRAUMA ALTERED DEVELOPMENT
+IMPORTANT POST ON ALTERED LANGUAGE DEVELOPMENT
+LINK TO CLEAR ARTICLE ON CHILD ABUSE LIFELONG CONSEQUENCES
+LINK TO IMPORTANT ARTICLE ON EFFECTS OF CHILDHOOD SEXUAL ABUSE
+LINK TO POST OUTLINE OF ABUSE 0-3 CONSEQUENCES
+LINKS TO ‘KIDS COUNT’ – MOST ACCURATE U.S. DATA ON CHILD WELL-BEING
+LINKS TO CDC ACE STUDY – LONGTERM CONSEQUENCES OF EARLY TRAUMA AND ABUSE
+LINKS TO SOME POPULAR POSTS
+MY OWN ABUSIVE INFANT-CHILDHOOD
+NOT BEING ABLE TO FEEL WHAT IT FEELS LIKE TO BE LOVED
+Posts on language development and infant abuse (and dissociation) Dec. 2010
+SEVERE EARLY ABUSE, SUBSTANCE P, LIFELONG PAIN OF SADNESS
+THE DOPAMINE-REWARD STUDIES: SERIES OF POSTS YOU REALLY DON’T WANT TO READ
+DOPAMINE AND INFANT LEARNING
+STUDYING DOPAMINE: POST #1 OF THE HARD TO READ SERIES!
+VIOLENT TRAUMA AND MALTREATMENT BIRTH TO AGE THREE (AND BEYOND)
The Impact of Maltreatment on the Developing Child (article link)
CONTACT INFO
DISSOCIATION
**2005 BEET HARVEST AND DISSOCIATION
*1972 – WHAT I FELT LIKE AT 20
*Language of Being Lost
*Age 20 – Horrible visit ‘home’ with my daughter
*Age 40 – DOING ART THERAPY
*Age 58 – MEETING MY MOTHER’S FRIEND
*ANTI-DISSOCIATION: REMEMBERING THE FEELING OF FEELING ONE’S SELF IN ONE’S LIFE
*DISSOCIATION: MEMORY OF ONGOING EXPERIENCE FROM THE PREY’S POINT OF VIEW
*FORENSIC AUTOBIOGRAPHY
*In Honor of the Grieving Chicken (2003)
*LIVE AND DIE TRYING: OUR CHILDHOOD PAIN IN OUR ADULT RELATIONSHIPS
*MY 1976 LETTER TO MY MOTHER -STILL LIVING THE LIE
*RESILIENCY – WHY I’M ALIVE – NOT A MYSTERY
*THE DAY I ABUSED MY OWN LITTLE SON
*’DIS-ASSOCIATION’ BETWEEN RIGHT-LEFT BRAIN HEMISPHERES AND DISMISSIVE-AVOIDANT INSECURE ATTACHMENT DISORDERS
+BECOMING HEALERS
+D-Day June 17, 2009
*Age 9 – BLOODY NOSE – check this as copy?
*Age 18 – FROM BOOT CAMP TO MOTHERHOOD
*ALL MY DREAMS
*1981 Dream (age 29) – Flooding Water, Little Room
*Age 21 – Photograph of Me in 1973
*Age 35 – The Dream – The Night I Banished the Radical Christians
*Age 58 – Art Work Processing
*Age 22 – Oct. 1973 ACT college results
*Age 34-35 (August 1986 – August 1987) First Sweat Ceremony
*Age 35 – Bear Butte and the circle around me (1987)
*011610 Zane reading – Cindy and Linda work together?
*Age 58 – Artwork October 29, 2009
*Age 58 – The simple state of just being in the world
*112509 Zane reading on life and death
*122809 Zane reading – relocation – Alaska
*Age 20 – My March 7, 1972 letter to my parents
*Age 20 – My May 1, 1972 letter to my mother
*Age 29 – Greyhound bus trip started February 17, 1981 – Journal entries
*Ages 29-33 – Eight Letters to a Friend
*Commentary on the eight letters to a friend – ages 29-33
*Age 29 – Beginning March 1981 Journal After 30-Day Bus Trip
*Age 29 – Journal Entries – Trying to Orient and Organize A Lost Self
*Age 30 Journal – Sept. through Dec. 1981
*Age 30 – Journal from January 1982 through April 1982
*Age 30 – Journal from May 1982 through August 1982
*Age 31 Journal – Sept. 1982 thru June 10, 1983
*Age 31 – Journal Starting June 10 to 27, 1983
*Ages 31 – 32 – August 13, 1983 through January 22, 1984 Journal
*Ages 35 – 36 – My 1987 Letters to My Mother
*Age 36 – My May 10, 1988 Letter Disowning My Mother
*Age 57 – Dec. 2007 – July 2008 – (A Shaman Daughter Pages)
*First Thought
*Second Thought
*Third Thought
*Fourth Thought
*Fifth Thought
*Sixth Thought
*Seventh Thought
*Eighth Thought
*Ninth Thought
*Tenth Thought
*Eleventh Thought
*Twelfth Thought
*Thirteenth Thought
*Fourteenth Thought
*Fifteenth Thought
*Sixteenth Thought
*Seventeenth Thought
*Age 57 – March 2009 (whole text) Astrological Reading About My Emotions
*Age 57 – Astrology Reading – Here’s just the part on emotions
*Age 57 – Astrology Reading – Here’s just the part on my logic
*Age 57 – Astrology Reading – Here’s just the part on my feeling different from other people
*Age 57 – Astrology Reading – Here’s just the part on my being a teacher
*Age 57 – Astrology Reading – Here’s just the part on potential and psychology
*Age 57 – Astrology Reading – Here’s just the part on summary and conclusion
*Age 58 – October 28, 2009 – Dollar store paint, crayon and marker images
*Age 58 – November 5, 2009 – A hard way to be in the world
*Age 58 – Astrology reading about life and death
EMOTION = Energy In Motion
**Buck on Symbolic Communication and Emotions
**Dr. Allan Schore on Emotional Regulation – Notes
** Schore – Notes on Developmental Emotional Dysregulation
**Notes on Schore – Development of Attachment
**Schore on Emotion: Orbitofrontal Notes
++ DR. SCHORE ON MORALITY
++ DR. SCHORE ON SHAME
**Happy Tips and “Take A Breather”
*DAMASIO NOTES – feeling of what happens
**DAMASIO ON CONSCIENCE
**DAMASIO ON CONSCIOUSNESS
**DAMASIO ON CORE CONSCIOUSNESS
**DAMASIO ON EMOTION AND FEELING
**DAMASIO ON EXTENDED CONSCIOUSNESS
**DAMASIO ON FEELING FEELINGS
**DAMASIO ON LANGUAGE AND CONSCIOUSNESS
**DAMASIO ON NEUROLOGY OF CONSCIOUSNESS
**DAMASIO ON ORGANISM AND OBJECT
**DAMASIO ON USING CONSCIOUSNESS
**DAMASIO’S APPENDIX – NOTES
*EMOTION AND ATTACHMENT
*EVOLUTION OF AFFECT
**Emotion notes
*Fine Tuning Our Emotions
*Joy and Happiness
*Notes on emotion and meaning
*The Shame Spectrum
+SEIGEL ON SHAME
++ARCHETYPES OF EMOTION – NEUROENDOCRINE PATTERNS OF EMOTIONAL RESPONSE from James Henry
+++MORE HENRY ON BRAIN AND EMOTION
++EMOTION (duplicate?) – set point
++EMOTION AND THE BRAIN
+Emotion organizes the brain-mind
+SEIGEL ON EMOTION AND BRAIN REGIONS
+SIEGEL ON EMOTIONS
+SEIGEL ON RESPONSE FLEXIBILITY
+SEIGEL ON RIGHT BRAIN AND BLOCKING EMOTIONS
+SIEGEL – DEFINING EMOTIONS
+SIEGEL – EMOTIONAL REGULATION
+SIEGEL – EMOTIONAL SPECIFICITY
+SIEGEL – EMOTIONS – ASSIGNING VALUE
+SIEGEL – EMOTIONS AND A SENSE OF TIME
ANXIETY SPECTRUM
+VAN DER KOLK ON TRAUMA AND NOTES
+VAN DER KOLK ON TRAUMATIC STRESS
Silvan S. Tomkins – “Affect – Imagery – Consciousness” 1962
+TOMKINS ON AFFECT
+TOMKINS ON ATTENTION
+TOMKINS ON EVOLUTION OF AFFECT
+TOMKINS ON FREE WILL
+TOMKINS ON PAIN
GOD LOVE
*”Of all the weapons in the world….”
*A TRUE PHILOSOPHER
*ABOUT OUR TESTS AND DIFFICULTIES
*ATTACHMENT ONLY TO GOD
*BEING A SPIRITUAL SEEKER
*CHILD ABUSE AND THE JOURNEY OF MY SOUL
*DEATH, SICKNESS OF BODY AND THE SOUL
*DON’T FORGET TO SING SING SING SING!!
*EMOTION AND SPIRITUALITY
*EXPIRATION DATE AND THE NEW WORLD
*HOW GOD WANTS US TO BE IN THE WORLD
*NO MATTER WHAT – HAVE NO ENEMY
*PRAY FOR OUR PARENTS
*PRAYER – ALL HUMANITY HAS BEEN CREATED ‘FROM THE SAME STOCK’
*RETRACING MY STEPS AS THE “BANISHED AND FAITHFUL FRIEND”
*SELF DEFENSE – SPIRITUAL CLARIFICATION
*SOUL AFTER DEATH (AND STORIES OF THE SOUL)
*Spiritual assistance with “doing good” in these dark times – from The Advent of Divine Justice
*THE 1ST 21 HIDDEN WORDS
*THE DIVINE PHYSICIAN (aspirations of our soul)
*THE FOOD OF MY SOUL – “THINE HEART IS MY TREASURY…”
*THE UNIVERSAL LOVE
*TWO WINGS OF THIS BIRD I AM – MY SOUL AND MY WORLDLY SELF
*UNCONSCIOUS PEOPLE
*UNDERSTANDING AND TRUTH
*WOMEN’S ROLE IN ESTABLISHING WORLD PEACE
*YES, ALL OF OUR ACTIONS MATTER!
+PRAYER FOR PROTECTION
+THE RIGHT METHOD OF TREATING CRIMINALS
LINDA’S ADOBE PEACE GARDEN
MY BORDERLINE MOM
*Link – about embarrassment and mother
*ZELAZO development of self control
**BIBLIOGRAPHY RELATED TO ZELAZO’S WORK
**ZELAZO – ARTICLE ON DEVELOPMENT OF CONSCIOUS CONTROL
MY SIBLINGS’ COMMENT PAGES
*BROTHER (1950)’s PAGES
*Statement from my oldest brother (1950)
*1959 – May – John and Dad walking up the mountain
*1960 (ish) – 2nd road being built – fantastic photo of my dad and oldest brother
*Brother John’s Letters to Grandma
*1963 – October 14 – John’s letter to grandma – returning from Santa Fe
*CINDY’S (1953) PAGES
**Cindy’s Letter to Mother 1994
*Cindy’s gym suit note
*Notes from a conversation with my (1953) sister
*Sister Cindy’s Childhood Letters
*July 11, 1960 – Cindy’s Letter to Grandma
*May 30, 1963 – Cindy’s Letter to Grandma
*October 18, 1965 – Cindy’s Letter to Dad
**CINDY’S BLOG POST on Mother (060409)
+Sister’s comment posted November 29, 2009
*SISTER (1955)’S PAGES
*BROTHER (1961)’S PAGES
*Comment posted by 1961 Brother
*BROTHER (1965)’S PAGES
**FAMILY TIME – by Brother (1965)
**SELLING THE HOMESTEAD
*RED ROBIN
The Aleutian Lulluby
OUR ABUSIVE CHILDHOODS and TRAUMA
*ADVERSIVE CHILDHOODS (notes from chapter 4)
*Holocaust mothers and offspring PTSD
*Child Abuse
**Extreme Early (Infant on Up) Child Abuse
**How did our early abuse change us?
*Infant Abuse in the News
*Notes – Body Survival
*TRAUMA STUDIES
**Vocabulary of trauma
*Atlanta Trauma Study
*Infants born with PTSD, mothers preg during 911
*OVERWHELMING TRAUMA CHANGES
*Societal PTSD in Northern Ireland
*Study on Trauma and Kids in Africa
*Study on Trauma and Inner City Kids
+ALICE MILLER
CDC Adverse Childhood Experience Study
CDC ACE study – for men
CDC ACE study – for women
CDC ACE study – health questions men
CDC ACE study – health questions women
LINKS for CDC Study
DISSOCIATION
GENETIC CONSIDERATIONS
Epigenetics
– CHILD ABUSE AND TRAUMA
OUR GRANDPARENTS’ PAGES
*Grandmother Cahill’s Autobiographical Writings
*Grandmother Cahill’s circa 1930 Writing About Her Father and Husband
*Grandmother’s Autobiographcial Writings About Childhood and Motherhood
*Grandmother’s Notes On Analyzing Mother’s Handwriting
*My father’s brother
+ 11-21-1962 Letter from Mother – Her Father’s Will
+GRANDMOTHER’S LETTERS TO MY MOTHER
*Grandmother’s 1-23-1961 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 1-9-1960 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 10-2-1961 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 12-10-1959 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 12-14-1959 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 12-22-1959 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 12-3-1959 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 3-19-1960 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 3-2-1960 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 3-23-1960 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 4-17-1960 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 4-9-1960 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 7-10-1960 Letter to Mother (depressed)
*Grandmother’s 7-12-1960 (2nd) Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 7-12-1960 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 7-6-1960 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 8-22-1960 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 8-5-1962 Letter to Mother
*Granmother’s 12-5-1959 Letter to Mother and Father
*Grandmother’s 3-3-1960 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 6-13-1959 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 6-7-1963 Letter To Mother
*Grandmother’s 9-8-1963 Letter to Mother
*1963 – December 6 – Grandmother’s letter to mother
*Grandmother’s 3-27-1964 Letter to Mother (written day of great Alaskan earthquake)
*Grandmother’s 3-28-1964 Letter to Mother the Day After the Great Earthquake (she knows nothing)
*Grandmother’s 3-29-1964 Letter to Mother After Earthquake (still hasn’t heard from us)
*Grandmother’s 3-31-1964 Letter to Mother (after quake)
*Grandmother’s 4-2-1964 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 4-5-1964 Letter to Mother (after earthquake)
*Grandmother’s 4-30-1964 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 5-9-1964 Letter to Mother
*Grandmother’s 5-14-1964 Letter to Mother (talks about ‘religion’)
*Grandmother’s 10-2-1966 Letter to Mother
*MOTHER’S PARENTS BLESSED (AND CURSED?)
*Link to Mother’s July 1, 1963 Letter About the Death of Her Father
*Link to 1955 photograph of grandmother and 3 kids
*Written 1974 – Mildred’s family story
+Mother’s comments on Dad’s mother 2-15-1958
*1963 – August 21 – Letter from Grandmother to Dad
*Grandmother’s 9-8-1963 Letter to Mother
*My Father’s (disowned) Parents’ Letter After the Earthquake 4-1-1964
Power of Story
*070509 SHORT STORY – DADDY’S GONE
*070609 SHORT STORY – SMALL CHANGES
*070709 SHORT STORY – COMPLICATED FORGIVENESS
*METAPHOR
*NEW LINK TO – My Mother’s Childhood Stories
*THE MEANING OF MENDING OUR LIFE STORY
++SCAER on trauma reenactments
+KARPMAN, Transactional Analysis and Drama
Children and Story
Drama and Trauma Drama
Vignettes and Metaphor
References
SPECTRUM GIRL
+(childhood) USING PAPER TO CREATE MY SELF
+ALWAYS
+AUTISM – A PARTICULAR KIND OF PERPETUAL INNOCENCE – 01/31/2017
+DESCRIPTION OF THE ART THERAPY “POWDER PUFF” EXPERIENCE – reposted here 01/31/2017
+INFO – 01/31/2017 – Neuroscience and Metaphor (autism?)
+LITTLE BATS – POEM – 02/01/2017
+MAYBE
+NOTES – 02/26/2017 – Something about “place”
+NOTES – 02/27/2017 – “Feeling – here or not here?”
+NOTES – 02/28/2017 – “Reconciliations” as they operate in the brain re: how humans value and decide/choose
+NOTES 01/30/2017 – rethinking my child & adulthood through the spectrum lens
+NOTES 02/20/2017 –
VERY HUMAN BOOK
Day Care Dilemmas – August 26, 2015
First Full Day – August 28, 2015
The Anger – August 29, 2015
WE the U.S. and the WORLD
+”THE SOUL’S POWER”
+09-11-11: Justice versus tyranny in the world – voice of truth
+MEASURE OF AMERICAN WELL-BEING: 2010-2011 RISK AND RESILIENCE REPORT
+North Dakota’s Tribes Oppose Keystone XL Tar Sands Pipeline (091311)
+UNITED NATIONS CIVIL SOCIETY NETWORK LINKS
WELL-BEING
*RESEARCH LANGUAGE ABOUT RESILIENCY
+RESILIENCY – ARTICLE LINKS ON FAMILY COPING STRATEGIES
+RISK, STRESS AND DISTRESS
HEALING WOUNDS
*Trauma Recovery – notes on Waking the Tiger
DEGREES OF WELL BEING
**FROM GENDLIN – FOCUSIN-ORIENTED PSYCHOTHERAPY (self)
*Allostasis and Allostatic Load
*LEARNING (notes from chapter 2)
*Magic of the Animals
*Notes on treatment models – Bateman and Fonagy
*REMEMBERING THE SELF (notes from Chapter 1)
**Informed Compassion
OUR HUMAN CONTINUUM
MEMORY AND PILLS
REPRODUCTIVE FITNESS INDICATORS
Ruminations
Treatment – Neuro feedback
*Trauma Memory – beta blockers
WHAT PICTURES TELL
+Photographs of My Mother
*Assorted homesteading photographs of mother – Mildred Anne Cahill Lloyd (12-25 to 3-2002)
*1943 Mother – Her Senior High School Picture (and her high school sweetheart’s)
*1959 – May – Mother Walking the Mountain Road – “Starting Home”
*1959 Mother walking mountain in the darkness
*1943 – Mildred Ann Cahill Lloyd – Senior High School Picture
*1960 (circa) Mom planting the fields
*1962 Link to picture of mom washing her face after planting fields
+THE ALASKAN NEIGHBORS
+1957 Photographs
+1958 Photographs
*1958 – An odd photo of our old FORD
1958 – Old Chugiak High School – John went to elementary in this building
+1959 Photographs
*1959 – Children New To the Mountain – Loving IT!
*1959 – May – Walking the Mountain – Barely A Road
*1959 December
*1959-1960 Proving Up on Land – Winter – Me and Smokey
*1959 July
*1959 July Birthday on homestead
*1959 – Children in the homestead snow
*1959 June
*1959 June – Homesteader Sharon and the Hut
*1959 – Jeep Truck With Jamesway, Pollard, Tractor
*1959 Spring Breakup – Dad with Stuck Jeep
*1959 – January – Dad and Jeep station wagon at Pollard’s house
*1959 – Can barely see it – trailer parked at bottom of Horror Hill
*1959 – April Fool’s Day – Gray trailer with Jeep pickup parked at Pollard’s
*1959 – April Fool’s Day – Moved to Gray Trailer, photo with Jeep truck
*1959 – May – More walking up the homestead mountain road
*1959 – The jeep road leading from Eagle River road into the valley
*1959 – April 3 – Kids on mountain road with patient father on tractor
+1960 Photographs
*1960 – April 3 – Dad Stuck in Snow on Tractor
*1960 Walking Up Mountain in Snow (Me and Cindy)
*1960 – May 7 – 4 of us all genuinely HAPPY! YAY!!!
*circa 1960 – Our Dog, Smokey (alone with wagon)
*1960 – Precious picture dad, John, Cindy, Sharon and a wheelbarrow of seed for the fields
*1960 August Final Plowing of the Fields – Oliver OC-3 and Plow
+1961 Photographs
*1961 September
+1962 Photographs
*1962 – Summer -Mother washing face after planting fields with dad
*1962 – Log house nursery
+1966 Photographs
*1966 – Link to Steve age one, with mother
*1966 – E. Hawthorne Street – Tucson, Arizona – Steve’s First Steps
*1959 Homestead summer and winter
*1963 – Trip to Santa Fe – Here at Grand Canyon – mom and kids
*Adding wood ends onto the Jamesway (circa 1968?)
*1958 – August 26 – Mother Voted on the Alaskan Statehood Referendum
*1959 – Big Moose
*1959 – Dad (looks like Steve), Cindy and John on “Castle Rock” on Homestead
+Collection of photographs on building a road
*1960 (ish) – Building the Second Mountain Homestead Road
*1963 Eagle River From the Air
*1963 – June 11 – Family Portrait
*Two pictures of Bill and Mildred together
*1963 – August 5 – Fire Damaged Copy of Patent Number 1232827 for 120 Acre Homestead
*1963 – August – Chevrolet Station Wagon and David – trip to Santa Fe, New Mexico
*1963 – August 20 note from dad – Got patent to 120 acres
*1963 5 kids and mom by cabin (possibly on trip to Santa Fe)
*1965 – Tucson rented house on Hawthorne St.
*1966 – February – Clearing Second Fields – last 5 acres
*1966 – March 3 – postcard from Dad to Mom (we are in Tucson) – RE: title to last 40 acres
*1967 – The Alaska Department of Highways Letters RE: Eagle River Road Extension
WHERE WAS MY FATHER?
*Link to October 21, 2009 Post About My Father
*Link to post (093009) about my father’s missing ‘self’
*My Father and All the Broken Vehicles
*Photographs – My Father
*1961 – Dad and David
*1957 Dad with Christmas Tree and 3 of His 4 Children – Where’s Linda?
*1959 – 1960 Serious winter – Dad smiling on tractor
*1959 April – Dad, truck towed with Jamesway floor up muddy Horror Hill
*1959 April 1st – Dad and Gray Jeep Truck
*1959 May – Dad with kids on big rock – leaving me out of the ‘family’
*1960 April 3 – Dad on Tractor in Snow
*1959 January link to Dad, Jeep at Pollard’s house
*1965-1966 – Dad in house
*Link to April 3, 1960 picture of Dad on tractor stuck in snow
*1963 – August 18 – Letter From Dad to Grandma
*1966 – April 6 – Letter from Army Corp – Dad not going
*1967 (circa) Dad and the red Toyota
*Poem my father wrote to my mother
*1959 September 11 – Dad’s note to Grandmother about $ troubles
*1962 November – The 5th Year Moose Hunt
*1963 – August – Dad’s Civil Engineer Work Promotion Form
*My father’s first letter from Alaska June 11, 1957
*1959 – April 3 – Father on tractor with kids on mountain road in snow
*1961 Dad and Baby David (on changing table)
*1963 – August 12 – Letter from Dad to Mother
*1963 – August 19 – Letter From Dad to Mother – He’s in Alaska, we’re on way to Santa Fe, New Mexico
*1963 – August 23 – Dad’s Letter to Mother
*1963 – August 26 – Letter from Dad to Mother –
*1963 – September 3 – Dad’s Letter to Mother While the Rest of Us Are In New Mexico
*1963 – September 4 – Letter from dad to mother
*1963 – September 6 – Dad’s Letter to Mother
*1963 – September 8 — Dad’s Letter to Mother
*1963 – October – trip back from Santa Fe – Dad at Grand Canyon
*1968 or 1969 – Link to phograph of Dad adding wood ends onto Jamesway
WORLD IN TRAVAIL
+CALAMITIES AND CRISES – Some Bahá’í Guidance
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