+BOOK WRITING – HARD WORK

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In some ways I feel as if I am abandoning my post (HA!  I made a pun!)  by diverting my attention into the writing of this book.  I am working hard on it — making progress — so far I am nearing the age of my 6th birthday — and what an old-soul child I was by that age.

I have a long way to go, and a lot of work to do, but with my loved one’s help I am ‘coloring within the lines’ so to speak, which means I am writing within the box, the parameters of the questions my daughter is sending me to respond to with my written answers — the best that I can.

We had our first heavy monsoon rain down here in southeastern Arizona yesterday, but I was disappointed to see that my plants showed signs of stress already today wanting more water!  Oh, I hope more good rains come.  We haven’t had rain for 9 months, and that’s a LONG time – an unusually long time!

So, time to relax for the rest of the evening — back to book writing work tomorrow!!!!

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+NO MORE WRITING HERE ‘TIL QUESTION #6 IS DONE

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OK, I can see right now that I have to leave the blog writing alone until I have completed writing my book response to Question #6.  I will be back here once that is done!  I need to contain all of my struggles right now to get this other work done.  As my daughter reminds me, “Just answer the question, Mom.”  So that is exactly what I will do, no matter what — and this is NO EASY TASK!  Back later!

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+YET ANOTHER ARTICLE ABOUT ‘ALL THAT REALLY MATTERS ABOUT INFANT-CHILD ABUSE’

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As many readers complain, the information infant-child abuse survivors most need to know is too scientific and complicated for us to understand!  This is an excellent and important 2005 article on the subject:

The enduring effects of abuse and related adverse experiences in childhood by Robert F. Anda et. al.  (with others….)

NOTE for some reason CLICKING ON THE TITLE DOESN’T WORK!  YOU HAVE TO COPY THE FOLLOWING INTO YOUR TOP ADDRESS BAR — I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THIS IS THE ONLY WAY TO GET TO THIS ARTICLE – or click below:

http://www.beforeyoutakethatpill.com/2009/6/anda_abuse.pdf

So, in the interests of all of us I am going to suggest that readers click on this title link and study the article.  In the meantime, I am going to butcher it here as I try to highlight some facts that MIGHT make sense to us – and to see the researchers behind these words, check out the article itself (follow the copy-paste directions above)!!  Buckle your seat belts, here goes!!  I will try to clarify at least a small part of what this article contains:

“The organization and functional capacity of the human brain depends upon an extraordinary set and sequence of developmental and environmental experiences that influence the expression of the genome [our genes]….  Unfortunately, this elegant sequence is vulnerable to extreme, repetitive, or abnormal patterns of stress during critical…periods of childhood brain development that can impair, often permanently, the activity of major neuroregulatory systems, with profound and lasting neurobehavioral consequences.”

“Now, converging evidence from neurobiology and epidemiology suggests that early life stress such as abuse and related adverse experiences cause enduring brain dysfunction that, in turn, affects health and quality of life throughout the lifespan.”

“An expanding body of evidence…suggests that early stressors cause long term changes in multiple brain circuits and systems….  The amygdala mediates fear responses, and the prefrontal cortex is involved in mood as well as emotional and cognitive responses….”

“The hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal (HPA) axis plays a critical role in the stress response.  There is an important interaction between development and stress….[in other words] young infants do not have a fully developed glucocorticoid (cortisol in humans) response to stress.”

“Substantial research has focused on the relationship between development, early stress, the HPA axis, and the hippocampus, a stress-sensitive brain region that plays a critical role in learning and memory….  The hippocampus has the capacity to grow new neurons in adulthood (neurogenesis), but stress inhibits neurogenesis…and memory function….”

“Early stressors cause long-term increases in glucocorticoid responses to stress [also related to development of autoimmune disorders!] as well as decreased genetic expression of cortisol receptors in the hippocampus and increased genetic expression of corticotrophin-releasing factor in the hypothalamus, both of which may contribute to dysregulation of the…(HPA) system [a huge factor in all anxiety ‘disorders’ from PTSD to depression and in autoimmune disorders].

“Early environmental deprivation [neglect] inhibits hippocampal neurogenesis; conversely, neurogenesis is enhanced by enriched environments… Alterations in serotonergic [serotonin]…receptors also contribute to deficits in social attachment and regulation of mood and affect following early stress.”

[I am leaving out a long list of research here – skim it in the article]

“Deprivation of developmentally appropriate experience may reduce neuronal activity, resulting in a generalized decrease in neurotrophin production, synaptic connectivity, and neuronal survival…resulting in profound abnormalities in brain organization and structure….  Thus, childhood abuse and exposure to domestic violence [including verbal abuse] can lead to numerous differences in the structure and physiology of the brain that expectedly would affect multiple human functions and behaviors….”

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Skip down through the tables and the facts on this research study and read the findings at the end of this.

I am supposed to be responding to Question #6 for the book my daughter and I are writing – but I am having a very hard time getting past this kind of information because it is all that really matters.  These kinds of changes are what created my mother’s terrible sickness in the first place that directly led to the terrible abuse she perpetrated against me — which in turn stole from me the best of my life by creating trauma-caused changes in MY development.

In the light of these kinds of facts NOTHING about my own personal story matters!!  THIS is the information that matters to all infant-child abuse survivors!!

AGAIN – NOTE for some reason CLICKING ON THE TITLE DOESN’T WORK!  YOU HAVE TO COPY THE FOLLOWING INTO YOUR TOP ADDRESS BAR — I HAVE NO IDEA WHY THIS IS THE ONLY WAY TO GET TO THIS ARTICLE or click below:

http://www.beforeyoutakethatpill.com/2009/6/anda_abuse.pdf

The enduring effects of abuse and related adverse experiences in childhood

Before anyone takes a pill to ‘feel better’, READ THIS!!!!!  This is the kind of information nobody tells us.  I can’t chew this all up and spit it into my readers’ mouths.  I am not a momma bird feeding a nest full of immature fledglings.  We CAN read and understand these facts!  No amount of therapy or doctoring in the universe is going to make a dent in ‘fixing us’ if we refuse to begin to understand what happened to change our development in the first place.

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+AGE 5 – GETTING A TOXIC DOSE OF THIS (which of course ALSO connected to my Insecure Attachment Disorder)

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+AGE 5 – GETTING A TOXIC DOSE OF THIS (which of course ALSO connected to my Insecure Attachment Disorder)

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Instead of getting an Easter basket full of candy in 1957 when I was 5 1/2, I was getting yet another toxic dose of this:

“Recent research suggests that early chronic trauma negatively affects brain development and body stress response systems (DeBellis et al., 1999a, 1999b).  In this formulation it is important to emphasize that early neglect and early trauma have similar effects.  Recent neurobiological research suggests that neglect and absence of care in infancy are traumatic because they create ongoing feelings of intense anxiety and helplessness.  Children with a history of severe early neglect show many PTSD symptoms, especially dissociation and hyperarousal (DeBellis, 2005).  Chronic trauma causes the HPA system to become overactive and more sensitive to future stress.  Children with histories of chronic abuse and trauma have greater concentrations of stress hormones than non traumatized children.  The longer the exposure to trauma, the higher were the abnormal concentrations of stress hormones and neurotransmitters (DeBellis et al., 1999a).  These biochemical changes mean that the stress response systems of traumatized children are activated much of the time, even when no stressors are present, and also that they become more active when stress is mild.  Essentially, the nervous system responds inappropriately, as if severe stressors were present.  Behaviorally, this biochemical overactivity translates into symptoms of PTSD:  hyperarousal, hypervigilance, high anxiety, and difficulty in sleeping.  In a highly reactive child these symptoms may surface so often that he appears to have ADHD; Perry, 1997 [sic]).  In severe cases of persistent abuse and neglect, pervasive developmental disorders may result (Nelson & Carver, 1998).

“The necessity of being constantly on alert has the potential to interfere with development in many ways, especially in young children whose self-regulatory and cognitive skills are not yet well developed.  Maladapted stress response systems have especially negative impacts on the regulation of arousal and emotion:  “Chronic stress increases the ability of the amygdala to learn and express fear associations, while at the same time reducing the ability of the prefrontal cortex to control fear…a vicious cycle in which increased fear and anxiety lead to more stress [and] further dysregulation” (Quirk, 2007, p. 39).   The individual’s ability to appraise environmental cues and respond in a modulated way is impaired by the automatic and overreactive quality of the stress response (Schore, 2001).  A traumatized child who has witnessed violence or been abused spends a great deal of energy scanning the behavior of others for signs of threat.  She becomes attuned to nonverbal cues that signal the potential for violence.  High arousal overshadows and interferes with other brain activities such as curiosity, concentration, and motivation to learn.

“Finally, studies using magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) have shown that children traumatized in the first few years have smaller brain volumes overall, in addition to other brain abnormalities, including delays in myelination, negative effects of stress hormones on the prefrontal cortex, and decreased density of corpus callosum, the network of nerve fibers that links and carries messages between the two hemispheres of the brain (DeBellis, 2005; DeBellis et al., 1999B; Teicher et al., 2004).”  (Child Development, Third Edition: A Practitioner’s Guide (Social Work Practice with Children and Families) by Douglas Davies (Hardcover – Jul 23, 2010) The Guilford Press; Third Edition (July 23, 2010) pages 51-52

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+YET ANOTHER ARTICLE ABOUT ‘ALL THAT REALLY MATTERS ABOUT INFANT-CHILD ABUSE’

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