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Just noting how absolutely uncomfortable I am with being angry — at anyone or anything for any reason.  I have no idea what ‘healthy anger’ might be — no idea if there even is such a thing.  No idea if some of this ‘healthy anger’ might be useful in combating sadness?

I heard a long time ago that ‘depression is anger turned inward’.  No idea if that statement might be remotely true, either.  It’s all a muddle to me — but today?  Angry and afraid of it.

I just know that I NEVER NEVER feel my anger is ‘justified’ or that I have a right to EVER be angry.  Therefore if I do feel angry, I am WRONG to feel it and I have to ‘make it go away’ ASAP.  So how am I going to learn anything useful about or from my anger if I cannot tolerate even feeling it?  Hum…

Anger — all anger — confuses and disorients me.

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