I am, at this point, quite convinced that I ‘have’ to talk about something that nobody else is talking about.  That makes even blogging difficult because I don’t care about my personal daily activities as subjects to write about.  Those things I do because I HAVE to.  Working on my ‘mission’ is something I do because I both HAVE to — in an entirely different way — and because I HAVE to do this writing then I WANT to do this writing.

But I have never been a trivial minded person.  I was robbed of that luxury by growing up under constant threat of terrible abuse in every arena of my life — except for what precious few hours I escaped to school.  That was it.  That was the only chance I had to escape from my abusive mother.

I know now that our brains are developing during all the experiences we have as very young people.  After we are 2, we are building a life using everything that was inputted into us by the age of 2.  But even after the age of 2 I was still in the same traumatic environment and things didn’t get any better.  So I never had a chance to build and develop a ‘social brain’, and I don’t have one now.

I am mostly all business.  My ability to focus is amazing.  I had the potential and had plenty of experience in being able to focus in order to stay alive.  This ties into the fact that what I feel I HAVE to do might as well be what I WANT to do because the focus is in me.  It is me.

When I say nobody is talking about what I feel I NEED to talk about I am talking about something that is so thought provoking people have not realized yet they need to think about it.  If they aren’t thinking about it, then they won’t be talking or writing (or blogging or twittering) about it, either.

What I know, and what I have to, want to, and need to say — if an when people out there pick up on the facts and then begin to think about them — has the potential to turn much about how we view ourselves and one another within our society.

We need to know what our mother’s environment was like while she carried us, because her level of stress hormones affected how our DNA expressed itself as our bodies grew.  We need to know her state of being when she delivered us, and how she — or any other early caregiver interacted with us.

We need to know WHO any other possible early caregivers were, and how they treated us because how they treated us determined how our bodies, including our brains (as a part of our nervous system), our entire nervous system and our immune system developed.

If we did not get our basic needs met on a regular basis as little tiny people, the environment that we were in basically communicated to us that we were evolving/developing to face a hostile world.  We therefore ended up with a very different body on all levels than we would have developed if we had been taken care of as nearly perfectly as is possible.

I say this thinking can change our society because once we know this crucial early information about our beginnings, we can look at how our lives developed from that point onwards.  If we have troubles in our lives — with our emotions including grief, sadness, depression, rage, aggression, isolation and loneliness, motivation, attention, general states of being related to anxiety and phobias, feeling overwhelmed and over stressed and often with a sense of foreboding for the future moment by moment — troubles with our relationships, friendships, with our children and parents, with ourselves — if we have (prior to this economic near-mayhem) had trouble with work, with peers, with our income, suffered from extremes of poverty and deprivation — committed crimes, violence, ended up in the criminal justice system — have repeatedly relocated due to stress or have been or are homeless, have mental health diagnosis, troubles with addictions — if we have to rely on psychiatric medications to maintain anything like a balanced equilibrium — then we DO NOT have optimal well being.

Chances are when we go back and realize that the brain (etc.) that we were forced to develop during very early infanthood and toddlerhood changed the trajectory of our lives and basically sent us off without all we needed to live the best life we deserved.  Once we realize this fact, we can begin to link up categories mentioned above and begin to understand the common ground so many of us are standing on.

At present, when I attempt to search the web for connecting factors I find isolated sites devoted to a focus on their particular piece of the broken or breaking puzzle.  If we don’t consider fully the impact of our early experiences, consider the kind and quality of the caregiving we received as infants and toddlers and young children — then we are missing the most important piece of information that can help us understand how our current life difficulties started in the first place and how they changed the very brain we use to face every aspect of our life.

If we are honest with ourselves, we know who we are.  I suspect that most people are already using nearly every bit of courage they have to get from morning to night each day.  We mostly know that no adequate care exists or is accessible to us to help us untangle the many tangled ties we have that connect us from the moment of our birth to our present situation.  We have been willing participants — because we have to or want to or need to — in the ‘substance consumption’ plan of getting through life.  It mostly seems more possible to take prescribed drugs, smoke pot, consume other illegal drugs, drink too much, eat too much, etc. than it is to make the changes we need to make in our lives to be happy, to live in a state of well being.

SEE:  http://www.cnn.com/2007/HEALTH/07/09/antidepressants/index.html

 

None of us are getting any younger.  None of us are going to get another chance to go back in time and make changes we wish we could.  So we keep on blindly struggling through our lives while rarely having the time or the means or the motivation to look at the bigger picture, to see how what’s wrong in our lives now is directly connected to what was wrong in our lives during our first 2 years of life — the very essential brain development and formative years that gave us the brain we use to get us through this very moment.

 

When a few people died as a result of someone tampering with aspirin bottles by adding poison on the west coast in the early 70s ALL human consumption industries figured out immediately how to protect us from such a problem happening again.  Maybe 4 people died?

 

What kind of mass actions do we take to address all the social and psychological problems (as mentioned above) that continue to plague our society?  What kind of dedicated effort do we put into making sure that EVERYONE has the same chance to grow up in a safe and secure home so that they can develop the best brain possible to have the best future in a benevolent world?

 

What are your thoughts?  What do you know?  What are your questions?

 

Based on what you know of the first 2 years of your life, did you get to grow a benevolent brain or one designed in, by and for a malevolent world?  Have you always thought that there was something more unfortunate about your life — then and now — than the lives other people get to live?

 

There is NOTHING wrong with knowing the truth about these things.  It is most helpful, actually, to admit the facts.  Facts are a good thing to know!  What were the factors that put you at risk for living a life more of struggle than of ease and well being?  Are you afraid to look back there?  It all ties together, what happened to you in those first 2 years.  Our caregivers download their own minds into ours, and if theirs was built in a hostile world chances are they were lacking in what they needed to give you the best start possible.  Believe me, it affected you.  Way back then, and it affects you now.  The beginning is the essential place to start anything like a recovery, change or healing effort.