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(Please note:  The formatting on this blog does not let me space these words in the way I want to – frustrating – but IS so, hence the little marks “^” on the left to keep my spaces!)

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Unresolved trauma equals

accumulated trauma

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Where are the breaks

in between?

^

We’re doing our best

when times seem better

^

in between the really hard

times

^

The really hard times

that would be hard for

anyone

everyone

^

We never had a warning

no yellow light

no warning

^

BAM

(not even exclamation marks can help describe this one)

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What little bit of peace

we’d found

^

GONE

^

in less than one heartbeat

^

GONE

^

Where did our peace go?

We don’t know

our self ran after it

^

BOTH GONE NOW!

^

how to find either one?

Our peace

our self

our peaceful self?

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there are tears

in between

tears

from being torn

ripped from our

childhood

^

into a grownup’s

world

We could not escape it.

^

ten thousand thousand times

We could not escape it.

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the glue that binds

one’s self to one’s self

a wet glue

a slippery salty water glue

^

tears

self

peace

^

Where?

How?

When?

^

because life is full of

slip ups

and blunders

^

We were supposed to be

a self in trouble

and in peace

^

not one or the other

^

not losing our self

when

THE BIG TROUBLES CAME

(THE BIG TROUBLES COME)

^

so no peace

could be found

(can be found)

^

or our self

^

blown up

blown away

^

so when the threats come

(and life will make sure that sometimes they do)

^

tears find us

standing more than naked

no legs left to stand

WITH

no body at all

so it

seems

^

again

and again

and

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“Come back to your body,

Linda.

Come be in your body

tears and all

^

Yes, your world

appears to be quaking

^

Yes it could eat you up

and leave

nothing

behind

at all

^

POOF

^

A puff of mist

^

But now people see you

not like long ago

when so often you

vanished

into the mist

nobody noticed

nobody found you

(nobody even found out this was happening to you)

^

Split apart

smaller than the parts

of an atom

^

Those big people

did that

to

YOU!

^

NO MORE!

THIS

is not the same.

^

You can remember

your self

NOW

Re-member!

^

tears in your present

taste them.

They are salty

^

as they have always been

^

they belong to YOU.

^

Remember this:

YOU

ARE

YOU!”

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